无题心情录

当了两个月的学生了,
问看自己有什么感想,
我不知道,只懂读书好过做工，
就尽情享受. 因为总算回到
预期中的轨道上了。

终于做了很多以前做工时
无法做的事情.
睡到七迟八迟,
无聊的对着电脑,
逛看连续剧,
到处无聊的走走等...

忙的时候还是很忙。
空虚的心情都被
高似山的课业
给满满的填补了。
我享受因为我懂
这会让我好过一点。

看回以往，
感情方面足足空白了2年,
不懂是自己给藉口
让自己忙不要去想那么多,
还是不肯去争取，
还是怕再次的受挫折。

得知妳和他分手了，
妳还好吗?
我还很想妳。
可是我无法让你知道。
因为我怕，你知道了后
我就连见你的机会都会没有了
在人前人后，我和他们说
我忘记妳了，
是假的.
或许我真的怕了吧.

原来,想念一个人
是会用错管道的
当你把想念的心
转移到另一个人的身上时
你已经不知不觉地在犯错了...
因为你在给藉口
让自己不寂寞。

Let Me Love

Like this song very much this recently. Thanks to JS, for recommended this song to me.

I believe everyone in this world have the right to love, or being loved.

"Let Me Love" is a song sang by 阿桑, a great singer which is just passed away after lost her battle to cancer. The lyric for this song is simple, but it touched my heart every time I listen to it. 阿桑, thank you for singing well in this song. I'll never forget you. May you rest in peace.

阿桑-让我爱

让我脆弱的爱 让我痛苦的爱
让我迷失的爱 但我还是渴望爱
让我温暖的爱 让我美丽的爱
让我微笑的爱 但我还是害怕爱

爱爱爱 哎哎哎
爱爱爱 让我爱
爱爱爱 哎哎哎
我要爱 让我爱

让我渺小的爱 让我停摆的爱
让我摇头的爱 但我还是挡不住爱
让我懂了的爱 让我勇敢的爱
让我活着的爱 但我还是留不住爱

爱爱爱 哎哎哎 爱爱爱 让我爱
爱爱爱 哎哎哎 我要爱 让我爱

爱爱爱 哎哎哎 爱爱爱 让我爱
爱爱爱 哎哎哎 我要爱 让我爱

爱爱爱 让我渺小的爱　
哎哎哎 让我停摆的爱
爱爱爱 让我摇头的爱　
让我爱 但我还是挡不住爱
爱爱爱 让我懂了的爱　
哎哎哎 让我勇敢的爱
爱爱爱 让我活着的爱　
让我爱 但我还是留不住爱

爱爱爱 哎哎哎
爱爱爱 让我爱

The Moment

The night is so silent at this moment, it makes me feel a very deep loneliness…

It has been almost a year since I last posted a new blog on the internet. I keep telling myself to write an updated blog when I have free time, but laziness had kept me delaying. I remember last year this time I was in dilemma deciding my new direction after I finished my diploma…

Everything just happens so fast, and all the views are still playing in my mind until now clearly. Yup, that is it, my working experience in Singapore. To lighten up my dad’s heavy burden, 19 years old playful boy had gone to a total stranger country, Singapore, to work. Talking about my first job, I had worked in a moderate private limited industries company. My job title was as a lab technician. (Something liked QA). I felt so excited to be employed into this company since what I studied was related to it. I got trained in this company, to plate or to passivate an aluminum, stainless steel, steel, etc…There were many things that I needed to handle when I was working there, such as attending training, briefing, meetings, preparing reports, doing testing on new materials, and so on. Although I felt very stressful sometimes, but it was a great experience for me to learn many new and interest things since I had no experience in this field at all. I had learned many skills such as how to communicate well with the colleagues from other departments, to troubleshoot on quality issue products, to do research, and so on.

Besides working, I had known a lot of new friends and colleagues. Kuang, Siew, Ling, Rose, Grace, Gemma, Yong, and Ping, thanks for guiding me in so many things when I was in trouble. Working with you all was pleasant and enjoyable. And please do forgive my childishness when I was playing fool with you guys during work. I would never forget the moment when we went to sing k, eat lunch at Gao Yuan, play bowling, eat crabs at Siew’s house, eat buffet at Sakura, shop at Bugis and etc…Even though I was far away from home, but all of you had given me the feeling of being at home always. And the most important matter was, you guys celebrated my 20 years old birthday at Genting. : ) Thanks to you all so so so so much! Love ya all…

I would like to thank those people who had been so selfish and hurt me so much in this company too, because of you all, I had grown up to be a more confidence and matured person, and a brand new Eric was born. The old Eric is dead and gone now… After that, I had changed another new job as a handphone sales executive. It was the second place in Singapore where I strengthened up my communication skills again. I had learned how to persuade customers by calling them to buy handphone, to apply for a telco line, to apply for a broadband and so on. Well, being in a customer service sector in Singapore was not as easy as I thought. It was always challenging and attention was needed all the time, and I always need to focus to know what the customer’s needs were. Working in this company had helped me to put away my self-esteem to listen to other people and senior’s advises to get improvement. The job routine was same everyday in this company compared to last company. But, what I felt was still the same. The feeling of stress, fear of making mistakes, strives for the sales targets and etc. Although I found myself talkative, but this job had proven that I was wrong and I needed to get improvement to correct my mistake.

Thanks Calvin, for being a good and caring superior. Thanks Evonne, for teaching me so many techniques to improve my sales skills and to be an “admin clerk” in shop. So sorry for disappointing you for the reason that I left Raffles. Thanks to Eric Chiang, for being a good manager, at the same time taught me so many things too. Thanks to Ling, for being a good colleague, a good listener and a cute character in our company. And at last, thanks to Kelvin Lee, for being a good boss. Although I only worked for 4 months, but I believe what I gained was more than that and was worth it. I would miss the days we danced crazily in double o! ~ ^^

As conclusion, I found that study is still the best. I promise you all that I will do my best to graduate and get my bachelor’s degree and become a successful dietician one day. Thanks to everyone that I had known in Singapore, and thanks to all of the encouragement that you all had given me.

p/s: Special thanks to Charlie, Vivian, Jenifer; best sister, and my lovely elder sister; Jenny. For the moment we had suffered together, and for the moment we will success. All the best to all of you.

Best regards,

E r i C F a N May'09

Cheers~

Eric celebrating his 20 years old birthday at Genting Highlands together with colleagues.

Eric and sister Fer during a gathering.

Eric and lovely Jenny in McD cafe before went for shopping.

Eric and Charlie while traveling in mrt during an outing.

Working Eric during the second job, Sales Executive.

Eric with colleagues during the first job. Eating at a buffet restaurant.

Eric with colleagues during the farewell.

Eric while as a Lab Technician.

Aloha! Blogspot.

Finally lauched my first official blog at blogspot... Bye bye to friendster blog and bye bye to xanga blog to0.

Hello to every blogger in blogspot, I'm Eric-Fan. A student who is nearly 21 years old. Nothing special about me, but I always try to be simple and passionate ... Perhaps you can describe me as funny, humorous and talkative if you know me. = )

It is kinda hard for me to write a well built blog on my first time without a draft. Well, I hope I can update my blog often to let everyone know about my feelings towards life, society, and things that happen beside you and me.

That's all for my first blog today, hello again to everyone.

E r i C F a N