1st post of 2011

Hey Guys, happy belated new year. How are you all?

Well, finally I'm back to KL now.

My longest ever break was just fabulous.

Being treated like a king in hometown.

Mum & Dad, Thank you. Love ya! :D

This is the last semester for me to go for

the final examinations, classes and lab reports.

Just chose my thesis title for my final year project.

I'm kinda worry whether will I get what I want?

Eight more months to go and I will be freed. Excited.

A brand New Year, must come with some new resolutions and new hopes.

One of my resolution for this year is to get rid of my few bad habits.

2011 is a year that many good things will happen. Agree?

Hopefully everything will go smoothly so that

I'm manage to finish everything as planned.

Cheers~ people. Wish you all will have a good good year. :D

I know you love me. xoxo

Regards, Eric

ps: All the best to Mr Bryan who will depart to Swiss next CNY and Miss Wei Na, Lee Na and Huan Ting who will depart to Aussie on this valentine. Will miss you all! Have fun, and study hard there. Take care!

告别奔波

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终于 等到了

最后一天.

失散了接近两个月

部落格, 久违了.

我想 我还是一样吧.

只是

依旧的有点累.

因为

工作让我奔波,

忙碌让我疲惫.

纵使

问题依然存在着,

但这一次

我想任性的 放肆.

还剩下八个月

那是并不容易过的两个学期.

大约三个礼拜的休息时间,

请告诉我一点也不奢侈.

我们

明年见?

21.9

the enormous press energy

Stress, very stress, super duper stress!!!

I'm just stressed to the max now.

Tomorrow will be my food engineering midterm test.

I had been told that there will be only 2 questions in the paper.

1 for calculation and another for theory part.

20% belongs to the calculation part while another 5% is for the theory part.

This 25% will combine with other assessments to make a total 60% coursework for this subject. 25%/60%, quite a big number huh?

Wonder can I even get a 5% from that 25%. :S

I admit that I'm still very blur at this moment although

I'm gonna attend the test in the time less than 24 hours.

Law of mass conservation, material balance, energy balance and etc...

They are killing me softly and yet cruelly.

Can I borrow Time Machine from Doraemon?

So that I can escape to the future rather than stay at the current moment.

It is really hard for me to reverse the word of stressed into desserts now.

The stress level I'm facing had exceed what I faced last semester.

Worsen insomnia, worsen losses of appetite, and Irritable Bowel Syndrome.

Mum keep saying never mind to me.

But that never mind seems like not enough to comfort me.

It is really not easy for a student like me who is very weak in maths and physics

to conquer engineering. (even only the fundamentals)

Just hope for a pass for this subject.

Hope that I'm not greedy.

I'm approaching to the end of my study life.

I will try my best anyway and wish to proceed everything smoothly.

So obstacles, do stay 10,000km away from me!!!

It's time to move on after I finished mumbling here.

*Imma gonna do it!!! Pray hard*

p/s: To someone, thanks for your encouragements and supports that are never end. I appreciate it always. =)

abc

September finally is here. Indeed, autumn had started in some of country like Japan. I think the maple leafs in Canada should be very colorful now. Either in dark brownish red color or reddish yellow color. Can imagine huh? As compare to those colorful maple leafs, my life is the same. It's dull. The time right now is pointing at 4a.m. I still can't sleep and feel very energetic. Sigh. Having insomnia lately. Again, it is caused by the same problem. Stress! ROAR!

Let's talking about my studies... (I know is kinda boring, but it had been too long I do not update my blog so just let me blah few sentences. =P) Hmmm... Taking 2 final year subjects in a short semester, everything were squeezed into 7 weeks. Quizzes, assignments, midterms = breathless! Well, ain't not fun at all! I do admit that sometime I like to say hectic this word for no reason even thou I am not in the situation. But now, I really mean it. It is just HECTIC. Never end. Sigh~~

Although hectic life never leave me, but I had learnt quite a numbers of new things from the nutrition lecturer and kinda enjoy the class too. Just finished done the quiz for the subject today...ermm... Kinda speechless while answering the questions. Was the 1st quiz after 6 lectures and I think most of the answers that I wrote are not exist in the notes! LOL! What to do? Got no sufficient time to do the revision after browsing through them "cincai-ly" at the 1st time. Need to swallow 8 sets of lecture notes that are quite thick with so many words filled in each slides. Somemore 2 of them were freshly made! (taught today n quiz immediately on tomorrow) Oh please. I'm not godlike and I think I screwed it.

I think the main reason of screwed the quiz is.... -> ma brain cells keep telling me that I'm still in the semester break and this explained why I can't really focus/concentrate well while doing revision too. And yet, here come the food engineering subject too! =(

Maths & physics love me but I don't love them. Sigh!!! I was born to be insensitive towards numbers, calculus, algebra and formulas. Feel sipek tension every time attend the lecture. Ma mind is totally blank when the lecturer standing beside me and observing me answer the questions! If Gennie is here, I wanna beg him makes me brilliant in maths!

Realize a important lesson via nutrition lectures and also by sharing of few stories among few buddies. I found that this "theory"can actually applied to our daily life. So this is what I wanna share in this blog and it is known as ABC triangle. A stand for the antecedents, while B is stand for the behavior, and lastly the C is known as Consequences here. Antecedent is also known as the causes. While I guess everyone knew what is behavior and consequences.

[So let us do some case study here, given a case that a person is gaining fat. ]

By using the ABC triangle to diagnose it, the antecedent diagnosed was, the person can't cope with the stress due to exam and hence caused the behavior of craving for foods uncontrolled, snacking, and etc. Whereas the consequences for this case will be weight gain.

For some of the people, they will eventually stop those foolish actions when they realized that they are having weight gained, and will start to do some changes is behavior.

Definitely, there are also some people will keep drowning themselves in the stage of behavior by ignoring the consequences. Those who keep drowning one will just keep moving in the triangle, and their life will become so narrow, become fatter and fatter and finally loss their confident. Hence, they stucked there and might not been escape out for life.

For those who had escaped, they are free and live like a normal person again.

Despite the antecedent, the person literally can control himself/herself by modify their behavior/attitudes. I did saw some of the success cases and the failure cases around me. After being a HUMAN for so many years, I do realize that behavior of a person plays a big role in life. It can send you high up to the heaven and even drag you fall into the hell.

Thanks, Mummy. For let me know how important it is.

Opps. Seems like writing too much.

What I wrote above just my very personal opinion. Okay?

Eric signing out here.

Today's quote: To somebody: I know you love me. xoxo =P

Empty

~~

You provoke me to navigates in the emptiness.

I gone crazy again and again in the middle of the night

I wonder whether the waves are your whereabouts.

Once again,I'm drowning in the flood

Countless emotional tidal waves crest my windows.

Your moves just like the black hole in the water.

So unpredictable.

You hurt and you're not in the realities and even the dreams.

Never show you my perplexes and as I'm floating weightless and direction-less.

~ ~

** This moment

I feel empty.

Nothing, it is empty

Waiting for

Your moves.

So that

I could drift away from this emptiness**

(Eric Fan, 2010)

[copied, edited, and translated, from one of the Soda Green's chinese song, Space]

OneRepublic - Secrets

OneRepublic - Secrets

I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kinda boring
Need something that I can confess
Til' all my sleeves are stained red
From all the truth that I've said
Come by it honestly I swear
Thought you saw wink, no
I've been on the brink, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

My god, amazing how we got this far
It's like we're chasing all those stars
Who's driving shiny big black cars
And everyday I see the news
All the problems that we could solve
And when a situation rises
Just write it into an album
Singing straight, too cold
I don't really like my flow, no, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

Oh, got no reason, got not shame
Got no family I can blame
Just don't let me disappear
I'mma tell you everything

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line

Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

All my secrets away, All my secrets away

Some thoughts on this meaningful song:

Love this song very much. Cannot stop myself play this song every moment. Dear people, I will not telling you all any secrets cause I don't have the secrets that you want/wish to listen.

This is the truth and I’m telling you this honestly. Don’t really care about whether you’re sincere or insincere. I’m here adsum. I am either what you want here or what you don’t want here. I showed myself uncovered here. How about you people? Cheers.

The relief and the "WOW"

Finally...

Very tiring UCSIU WOW Food Fair 2010 is over.

What can I say? It is just tired.

And my backbone is still pain until now.

Anyway, its really a sweet and bitter experience.

No more next time please...

I guess everyone will say so! LOL.

Proudly present

"RIDATO"

by

Love FOOODduh Sdn Bhd. =)

Mixture of 3 different ball shaped foods

and serve with

homemade soya mayonnaise.

Yummy!

I know it looks like Takoyaki in pasar malam.

But this is definitely

more healthier and tastier! XD

100% guarantee! *wink wink*

"RI.DA.TO"

Our promotion board/poster. 100% Handmade!

Credits to Corliss & Chun Shien.

The fish really looks so real.

Good job!!!

*Eric likes this*

The great people. =)

Glad to have you all.

*Eric Loves this*

Sorry for not being a good leader by the way.

Cheese!

Thanks to all of you.

Our hardworks finally get paid.

I will definitely never forget the moment.

Which moment? I bet all of you know it.

Can't wait for our celebration party. =)

Had a short break with my dearest sister

Jenifer,

before the food fair.

Miss you much! Very very much.

Finally able to meet you after 7 months!

Hohoho~ =) =) =)

Thanks for the souvenirs too!

Movies, shopping, eating, drinking, gossiping and chit-chatting,

always are our favourite routine activities.

*Eric super loves this*

I know You love Me.

xoxo

Welcome back, darling.

Don't look back for what had happened.

Just let it be and enjoy your life now. =)

All the best and good luck in your job hunting process!

~~~~~

Short trip in Fraser Hill on one of the weekend in Jun.

Kinda relaxed and enjoyed.

Apparently,

My arms were not strong enough to play archery.

Thanks again, great people.

For making me laugh happily

and

sending the sunshine into

my life.

=)

"The aims for the future?"

If yes,

what is the chances and probability of hitting the target?

I doubted towards myself at that moment.

Lastly, am I really happy?

I really don't know.

Cause I am searching for the answer too.

I guess I am. Hmmm

Today's quote from Eric: I'm malaise. I'm sleepy and not enough sleep. =P

Some thoughts...

Dilemma in doing course selection. 3 more days to go. Sigh...

What should I do? Phobia in making choices.

Every step taken and choices made is crucial now. HELP!!!

To someone: I really enjoy my single life now.

Being in single life gave me a chance to love myself more.

And at last, I think I'm not ready yet.