勇气

有人说过

勇气

不是天生就有的

而是一天一天累积的

勇气

我现在需要你.

你在那里?

February Update 1 - Chinese New Year and thesis

Back from the celebration of Chinese New Year.

Hey guys, how was the celebration? Hope all of you have fun thou.

*Happy very belated bunny Chinese New Year* :D

Hopefully I'm not the latest one to wish you all. =P

The season of reading is here right after the holiday.

I guess this time I really need to take it serious and move on.

No more jocking and sleeping in the future please!

Thesis titles were released before I went back to Penang for CNY.

Although I didn't get what I wanted but I'm glad that I'm not alone.

Jeng jeng jeng...My thesis title is " Effect of ethanol concentration, solid to solvent ration and extraction time on TFC, DPPH and Catechin content of crassna leaf."

Tell me it is not complicated at all please. crassna is one of the plant that can be found in Malaysia and planted commercially. It's leaves contained the antioxidant compound . I even don't know what Catechin, TFC, and DPPH are before get assigned to this tile. =.=

But as quoted from a Chinese phrase, "since you're here just settle at here". Hopefully I can finish this longest "lab report" ever with a good result to my supervisor and so do my Mum.

My supervisor, who is Dr Ivan is just fine and fun enough. He had guided us a lot in this research. Hopefully I'm able to meet his requirement until the end of research.

Glad that four of us (me and another 3 batch mates) are under his supervised even-thou he gave us a lot of homework. >.<

Well, talked about the journals reading...Oh man, it really kills!

Don't you think that the words are too small to be read?

They KO-ed me perfectly too. By hiding themselves when I wanted them so badly.

I think I had spent more time on sciencedirect.com rather than Facebook since last week.

Oh yeah not to forget,

Wish you all have a happy valentine's day too. =)

Fyi, I celebrated 1 out of 22 valentine in my life. And lastly,

I'm single and available now. lol

Cheers to the New Bunny Year~ Huat ar!!!~

Best regards,

Eric Fan

xoxo

p/s: Sometimes, I would rather to be the person who is leaving. But when is my turn? I'm losing my patience gradually and yet silently... At this moment, I still can't believe that three of you already departed to Aussie on this morning. I feel damn regret now because I had missed too many gathering sessions with you all especially with Lee Na. I promise I'll miss you all always. :D Take good care and study hard at there please

1st post of 2011

Hey Guys, happy belated new year. How are you all?

Well, finally I'm back to KL now.

My longest ever break was just fabulous.

Being treated like a king in hometown.

Mum & Dad, Thank you. Love ya! :D

This is the last semester for me to go for

the final examinations, classes and lab reports.

Just chose my thesis title for my final year project.

I'm kinda worry whether will I get what I want?

Eight more months to go and I will be freed. Excited.

A brand New Year, must come with some new resolutions and new hopes.

One of my resolution for this year is to get rid of my few bad habits.

2011 is a year that many good things will happen. Agree?

Hopefully everything will go smoothly so that

I'm manage to finish everything as planned.

Cheers~ people. Wish you all will have a good good year. :D

I know you love me. xoxo

Regards, Eric

ps: All the best to Mr Bryan who will depart to Swiss next CNY and Miss Wei Na, Lee Na and Huan Ting who will depart to Aussie on this valentine. Will miss you all! Have fun, and study hard there. Take care!

告别奔波

吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉

终于 等到了

最后一天.

失散了接近两个月

部落格, 久违了.

我想 我还是一样吧.

只是

依旧的有点累.

因为

工作让我奔波,

忙碌让我疲惫.

纵使

问题依然存在着,

但这一次

我想任性的 放肆.

还剩下八个月

那是并不容易过的两个学期.

大约三个礼拜的休息时间,

请告诉我一点也不奢侈.

我们

明年见?

21.9

the enormous press energy

Stress, very stress, super duper stress!!!

I'm just stressed to the max now.

Tomorrow will be my food engineering midterm test.

I had been told that there will be only 2 questions in the paper.

1 for calculation and another for theory part.

20% belongs to the calculation part while another 5% is for the theory part.

This 25% will combine with other assessments to make a total 60% coursework for this subject. 25%/60%, quite a big number huh?

Wonder can I even get a 5% from that 25%. :S

I admit that I'm still very blur at this moment although

I'm gonna attend the test in the time less than 24 hours.

Law of mass conservation, material balance, energy balance and etc...

They are killing me softly and yet cruelly.

Can I borrow Time Machine from Doraemon?

So that I can escape to the future rather than stay at the current moment.

It is really hard for me to reverse the word of stressed into desserts now.

The stress level I'm facing had exceed what I faced last semester.

Worsen insomnia, worsen losses of appetite, and Irritable Bowel Syndrome.

Mum keep saying never mind to me.

But that never mind seems like not enough to comfort me.

It is really not easy for a student like me who is very weak in maths and physics

to conquer engineering. (even only the fundamentals)

Just hope for a pass for this subject.

Hope that I'm not greedy.

I'm approaching to the end of my study life.

I will try my best anyway and wish to proceed everything smoothly.

So obstacles, do stay 10,000km away from me!!!

It's time to move on after I finished mumbling here.

*Imma gonna do it!!! Pray hard*

p/s: To someone, thanks for your encouragements and supports that are never end. I appreciate it always. =)

abc

September finally is here. Indeed, autumn had started in some of country like Japan. I think the maple leafs in Canada should be very colorful now. Either in dark brownish red color or reddish yellow color. Can imagine huh? As compare to those colorful maple leafs, my life is the same. It's dull. The time right now is pointing at 4a.m. I still can't sleep and feel very energetic. Sigh. Having insomnia lately. Again, it is caused by the same problem. Stress! ROAR!

Let's talking about my studies... (I know is kinda boring, but it had been too long I do not update my blog so just let me blah few sentences. =P) Hmmm... Taking 2 final year subjects in a short semester, everything were squeezed into 7 weeks. Quizzes, assignments, midterms = breathless! Well, ain't not fun at all! I do admit that sometime I like to say hectic this word for no reason even thou I am not in the situation. But now, I really mean it. It is just HECTIC. Never end. Sigh~~

Although hectic life never leave me, but I had learnt quite a numbers of new things from the nutrition lecturer and kinda enjoy the class too. Just finished done the quiz for the subject today...ermm... Kinda speechless while answering the questions. Was the 1st quiz after 6 lectures and I think most of the answers that I wrote are not exist in the notes! LOL! What to do? Got no sufficient time to do the revision after browsing through them "cincai-ly" at the 1st time. Need to swallow 8 sets of lecture notes that are quite thick with so many words filled in each slides. Somemore 2 of them were freshly made! (taught today n quiz immediately on tomorrow) Oh please. I'm not godlike and I think I screwed it.

I think the main reason of screwed the quiz is.... -> ma brain cells keep telling me that I'm still in the semester break and this explained why I can't really focus/concentrate well while doing revision too. And yet, here come the food engineering subject too! =(

Maths & physics love me but I don't love them. Sigh!!! I was born to be insensitive towards numbers, calculus, algebra and formulas. Feel sipek tension every time attend the lecture. Ma mind is totally blank when the lecturer standing beside me and observing me answer the questions! If Gennie is here, I wanna beg him makes me brilliant in maths!

Realize a important lesson via nutrition lectures and also by sharing of few stories among few buddies. I found that this "theory"can actually applied to our daily life. So this is what I wanna share in this blog and it is known as ABC triangle. A stand for the antecedents, while B is stand for the behavior, and lastly the C is known as Consequences here. Antecedent is also known as the causes. While I guess everyone knew what is behavior and consequences.

[So let us do some case study here, given a case that a person is gaining fat. ]

By using the ABC triangle to diagnose it, the antecedent diagnosed was, the person can't cope with the stress due to exam and hence caused the behavior of craving for foods uncontrolled, snacking, and etc. Whereas the consequences for this case will be weight gain.

For some of the people, they will eventually stop those foolish actions when they realized that they are having weight gained, and will start to do some changes is behavior.

Definitely, there are also some people will keep drowning themselves in the stage of behavior by ignoring the consequences. Those who keep drowning one will just keep moving in the triangle, and their life will become so narrow, become fatter and fatter and finally loss their confident. Hence, they stucked there and might not been escape out for life.

For those who had escaped, they are free and live like a normal person again.

Despite the antecedent, the person literally can control himself/herself by modify their behavior/attitudes. I did saw some of the success cases and the failure cases around me. After being a HUMAN for so many years, I do realize that behavior of a person plays a big role in life. It can send you high up to the heaven and even drag you fall into the hell.

Thanks, Mummy. For let me know how important it is.

Opps. Seems like writing too much.

What I wrote above just my very personal opinion. Okay?

Eric signing out here.

Today's quote: To somebody: I know you love me. xoxo =P

Empty

~~

You provoke me to navigates in the emptiness.

I gone crazy again and again in the middle of the night

I wonder whether the waves are your whereabouts.

Once again,I'm drowning in the flood

Countless emotional tidal waves crest my windows.

Your moves just like the black hole in the water.

So unpredictable.

You hurt and you're not in the realities and even the dreams.

Never show you my perplexes and as I'm floating weightless and direction-less.

~ ~

** This moment

I feel empty.

Nothing, it is empty

Waiting for

Your moves.

So that

I could drift away from this emptiness**

(Eric Fan, 2010)

[copied, edited, and translated, from one of the Soda Green's chinese song, Space]