LoveLife.LoveJob

It's had been about many months I disappeared from here. Well, few months ago, I accidentally deleted all the photos I uploaded in this blog when I synchronized my new phone with this google account. This really pissed me off as I know is my own fault and I had no mood at all to rewrite this blog. After a while, I realized that I should keep myself updated here so that all of you know what is happening on me. :) Off course, I miss writing too! There were too many things happen within this period. Dear my fellow friends and my followers, just to let you know I'm fine, doing great. Working very hard to prove my ability that I can survive in this service line. Fyi, I had started to work since January. Although sometimes this job is kind of tiring and I had missed a lot of precious time with friends and family due to the schedule and yet I'm loving it. I can feel that I'm growing to become a better, mature and more patience person as from the challenges given from my job everyday. I'm glad that I had archived what I want until now although it might not be so "glamorous" in other people's eye. I know that what am I doing now is a good "stepping stone" for me in order to get a better one in the future. Oh yeah, just to let you all know another thing that finally I had finished my final year project. Yesh! I guess I'm now not longer a student anymore? Haha... Waiting the result to be released now so that I can attend the convocation in this July. I guess that all for this time cause I don't know what to write for today as my brain is a little bit slow today cause too long never write already. I'll be back next time okay. :) 

p/s: To someone, thank You for teaching me this lesson. "Live in the present moment." I really appreciate on every single thing You done on me. :)

May' 2012. I live in the present moment. 

Update: "Best" Ambassador Ever.

It's had been a while I never update my blog...

Well, I guess it's time for me to do so.

Dear friends, just wanna let you all know

I'm still alive and I'm fine. :D

Busy for my part time job and so do my FYP this recently.

Both of these photos shown were taken

for the purpose of to claim my salary.

Kinda weird huh? =.='''

This is the 1st ever part time job that I needed to do so. Other than that,

I need to do the inventory and compile my own commission list too!

Anyway, this is also one of the most relax job ever.

Met a lot of funny people in Low Yat and The Mines too. :D

It's August now, I'm glad that everything is on the right track.

Hopefully I'm manage to finish my lab works and thesis as planned.

Although something not so fun was happened due to the selfishness of

some people, but I, know that as long as I did my part well, everything is gonna be ok.

After thesis, I'm going to start my 4 months internship with a

Food Science/Nutrition related company which around

end of October or the 1st week of November.

Well, it is a MUST for me to do so in order to graduate.

I'm wondering whether can I fake it? Don't feel like working as a Trainee leh.

Haven't really go and hunt for any job yet because I'm so lazy to do so.

Time flies.

Can't believe my study life is coming to the end soon.

Like spent a lot of time on it. And it is just a degree.

Am I going to further? I don't know.

At this moment I just hope that my FYP can go smoothly until viva.

*praying hard*

Sneak Peek

大姐出嫁了,

这是我们家第一次办喜事

还真的是忙得不可开交.

那是一个难忘值得高兴的夜晚

因为你是我们心目中

最美丽的新娘.

虽然

还有两个礼拜

才是正式出门的日子

可是 我已经感觉到

爸妈已经很舍不得妳了.

好啦

祝福妳和姐夫永远幸福啦

拜托就别那么的凶了啦.

一定要手牵着手

然后给我跟姐夫白头到偕老. :D

赶快生一个小我二十四岁的外甥给我抱抱.

这几年真的是辛苦妳了,

我会赶快把妳的重担全部都啃过来的.

♥♥♥谢谢妳♥♥♥

要送你的嫁妆就先欠着妳先吧 okay?

我会努力做到我所承诺过妳的事情. =)

婆婆

3月6日 那一天是您的生日.

我和姐都回到了家 去探访在医院养病中的您

猛然的发现到 才一阵子没见到您,

顿时憔悴了很多.

那天 大家都在病房里,

很开心的一起拍了很多照片

虽然大家都很清楚为什么会聚在一起的原因,

纵使心里面有多么的伤心, 但为了要完成您的心愿,

我们还是开心的笑了.

我永远无法忘记 当时的您是笑得多么的灿烂.

3月9日的晚上

医生告诉爸说 您已经进入了昏迷状态

心电图上的反应,

是您告诉爸说您想回家的意愿

这也是您给我们最后的无声讯息.

到了凌晨, 妹妹便哭着打电话来说

您 在抵达家里不久后便永远的离开了我们.

或许 您的心愿爸都帮您一一完成了

对于这个花花世界 您再也没有任何留恋

所以 您想脱离病痛的折磨 回到天父那里去.

当我再一次看到您、再握住您的手的时候,

您已经是冷冰冰的躺在那里了.

爸说 您离开的时候

是安详的 不带任何痛苦的.

所以叫我别哭, 那是主给的恩宠

我不哭 因为我要永远当您的乖孙儿.

婆婆, 对不起 原谅我当时没有陪在您身旁.

3月13日

是您在家里的最后一天.

到了那一刻 我终于感觉到

失去亲人是一件多么伤心的事实.

再也忍不住的眼泪不停的往下流.

对我来说 这是多么不能接受的事实啊..

我还没穿上毕业袍和您拍照 让您为我的成就感到骄傲

我也还没有亲手的烹调您传授的芋头扣肉让您试试

您也还没看到大姐穿上那美丽的婚纱...

婆婆

愿您安息

我会牢牢地记住

您 曾经教会我的每一样事情.

教会我做人的道理.

我会永远永远怀念您的

我爱您.

勇气

有人说过

勇气

不是天生就有的

而是一天一天累积的

勇气

我现在需要你.

你在那里?

February Update 1 - Chinese New Year and thesis

Back from the celebration of Chinese New Year.

Hey guys, how was the celebration? Hope all of you have fun thou.

*Happy very belated bunny Chinese New Year* :D

Hopefully I'm not the latest one to wish you all. =P

The season of reading is here right after the holiday.

I guess this time I really need to take it serious and move on.

No more jocking and sleeping in the future please!

Thesis titles were released before I went back to Penang for CNY.

Although I didn't get what I wanted but I'm glad that I'm not alone.

Jeng jeng jeng...My thesis title is " Effect of ethanol concentration, solid to solvent ration and extraction time on TFC, DPPH and Catechin content of crassna leaf."

Tell me it is not complicated at all please. crassna is one of the plant that can be found in Malaysia and planted commercially. It's leaves contained the antioxidant compound . I even don't know what Catechin, TFC, and DPPH are before get assigned to this tile. =.=

But as quoted from a Chinese phrase, "since you're here just settle at here". Hopefully I can finish this longest "lab report" ever with a good result to my supervisor and so do my Mum.

My supervisor, who is Dr Ivan is just fine and fun enough. He had guided us a lot in this research. Hopefully I'm able to meet his requirement until the end of research.

Glad that four of us (me and another 3 batch mates) are under his supervised even-thou he gave us a lot of homework. >.<

Well, talked about the journals reading...Oh man, it really kills!

Don't you think that the words are too small to be read?

They KO-ed me perfectly too. By hiding themselves when I wanted them so badly.

I think I had spent more time on sciencedirect.com rather than Facebook since last week.

Oh yeah not to forget,

Wish you all have a happy valentine's day too. =)

Fyi, I celebrated 1 out of 22 valentine in my life. And lastly,

I'm single and available now. lol

Cheers to the New Bunny Year~ Huat ar!!!~

Best regards,

Eric Fan

xoxo

p/s: Sometimes, I would rather to be the person who is leaving. But when is my turn? I'm losing my patience gradually and yet silently... At this moment, I still can't believe that three of you already departed to Aussie on this morning. I feel damn regret now because I had missed too many gathering sessions with you all especially with Lee Na. I promise I'll miss you all always. :D Take good care and study hard at there please

1st post of 2011

Hey Guys, happy belated new year. How are you all?

Well, finally I'm back to KL now.

My longest ever break was just fabulous.

Being treated like a king in hometown.

Mum & Dad, Thank you. Love ya! :D

This is the last semester for me to go for

the final examinations, classes and lab reports.

Just chose my thesis title for my final year project.

I'm kinda worry whether will I get what I want?

Eight more months to go and I will be freed. Excited.

A brand New Year, must come with some new resolutions and new hopes.

One of my resolution for this year is to get rid of my few bad habits.

2011 is a year that many good things will happen. Agree?

Hopefully everything will go smoothly so that

I'm manage to finish everything as planned.

Cheers~ people. Wish you all will have a good good year. :D

I know you love me. xoxo

Regards, Eric

ps: All the best to Mr Bryan who will depart to Swiss next CNY and Miss Wei Na, Lee Na and Huan Ting who will depart to Aussie on this valentine. Will miss you all! Have fun, and study hard there. Take care!

告别奔波

吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉

终于 等到了

最后一天.

失散了接近两个月

部落格, 久违了.

我想 我还是一样吧.

只是

依旧的有点累.

因为

工作让我奔波,

忙碌让我疲惫.

纵使

问题依然存在着,

但这一次

我想任性的 放肆.

还剩下八个月

那是并不容易过的两个学期.

大约三个礼拜的休息时间,

请告诉我一点也不奢侈.

我们

明年见?

21.9

the enormous press energy

Stress, very stress, super duper stress!!!

I'm just stressed to the max now.

Tomorrow will be my food engineering midterm test.

I had been told that there will be only 2 questions in the paper.

1 for calculation and another for theory part.

20% belongs to the calculation part while another 5% is for the theory part.

This 25% will combine with other assessments to make a total 60% coursework for this subject. 25%/60%, quite a big number huh?

Wonder can I even get a 5% from that 25%. :S

I admit that I'm still very blur at this moment although

I'm gonna attend the test in the time less than 24 hours.

Law of mass conservation, material balance, energy balance and etc...

They are killing me softly and yet cruelly.

Can I borrow Time Machine from Doraemon?

So that I can escape to the future rather than stay at the current moment.

It is really hard for me to reverse the word of stressed into desserts now.

The stress level I'm facing had exceed what I faced last semester.

Worsen insomnia, worsen losses of appetite, and Irritable Bowel Syndrome.

Mum keep saying never mind to me.

But that never mind seems like not enough to comfort me.

It is really not easy for a student like me who is very weak in maths and physics

to conquer engineering. (even only the fundamentals)

Just hope for a pass for this subject.

Hope that I'm not greedy.

I'm approaching to the end of my study life.

I will try my best anyway and wish to proceed everything smoothly.

So obstacles, do stay 10,000km away from me!!!

It's time to move on after I finished mumbling here.

*Imma gonna do it!!! Pray hard*

p/s: To someone, thanks for your encouragements and supports that are never end. I appreciate it always. =)

abc

September finally is here. Indeed, autumn had started in some of country like Japan. I think the maple leafs in Canada should be very colorful now. Either in dark brownish red color or reddish yellow color. Can imagine huh? As compare to those colorful maple leafs, my life is the same. It's dull. The time right now is pointing at 4a.m. I still can't sleep and feel very energetic. Sigh. Having insomnia lately. Again, it is caused by the same problem. Stress! ROAR!

Let's talking about my studies... (I know is kinda boring, but it had been too long I do not update my blog so just let me blah few sentences. =P) Hmmm... Taking 2 final year subjects in a short semester, everything were squeezed into 7 weeks. Quizzes, assignments, midterms = breathless! Well, ain't not fun at all! I do admit that sometime I like to say hectic this word for no reason even thou I am not in the situation. But now, I really mean it. It is just HECTIC. Never end. Sigh~~

Although hectic life never leave me, but I had learnt quite a numbers of new things from the nutrition lecturer and kinda enjoy the class too. Just finished done the quiz for the subject today...ermm... Kinda speechless while answering the questions. Was the 1st quiz after 6 lectures and I think most of the answers that I wrote are not exist in the notes! LOL! What to do? Got no sufficient time to do the revision after browsing through them "cincai-ly" at the 1st time. Need to swallow 8 sets of lecture notes that are quite thick with so many words filled in each slides. Somemore 2 of them were freshly made! (taught today n quiz immediately on tomorrow) Oh please. I'm not godlike and I think I screwed it.

I think the main reason of screwed the quiz is.... -> ma brain cells keep telling me that I'm still in the semester break and this explained why I can't really focus/concentrate well while doing revision too. And yet, here come the food engineering subject too! =(

Maths & physics love me but I don't love them. Sigh!!! I was born to be insensitive towards numbers, calculus, algebra and formulas. Feel sipek tension every time attend the lecture. Ma mind is totally blank when the lecturer standing beside me and observing me answer the questions! If Gennie is here, I wanna beg him makes me brilliant in maths!

Realize a important lesson via nutrition lectures and also by sharing of few stories among few buddies. I found that this "theory"can actually applied to our daily life. So this is what I wanna share in this blog and it is known as ABC triangle. A stand for the antecedents, while B is stand for the behavior, and lastly the C is known as Consequences here. Antecedent is also known as the causes. While I guess everyone knew what is behavior and consequences.

[So let us do some case study here, given a case that a person is gaining fat. ]

By using the ABC triangle to diagnose it, the antecedent diagnosed was, the person can't cope with the stress due to exam and hence caused the behavior of craving for foods uncontrolled, snacking, and etc. Whereas the consequences for this case will be weight gain.

For some of the people, they will eventually stop those foolish actions when they realized that they are having weight gained, and will start to do some changes is behavior.

Definitely, there are also some people will keep drowning themselves in the stage of behavior by ignoring the consequences. Those who keep drowning one will just keep moving in the triangle, and their life will become so narrow, become fatter and fatter and finally loss their confident. Hence, they stucked there and might not been escape out for life.

For those who had escaped, they are free and live like a normal person again.

Despite the antecedent, the person literally can control himself/herself by modify their behavior/attitudes. I did saw some of the success cases and the failure cases around me. After being a HUMAN for so many years, I do realize that behavior of a person plays a big role in life. It can send you high up to the heaven and even drag you fall into the hell.

Thanks, Mummy. For let me know how important it is.

Opps. Seems like writing too much.

What I wrote above just my very personal opinion. Okay?

Eric signing out here.

Today's quote: To somebody: I know you love me. xoxo =P

Empty

~~

You provoke me to navigates in the emptiness.

I gone crazy again and again in the middle of the night

I wonder whether the waves are your whereabouts.

Once again,I'm drowning in the flood

Countless emotional tidal waves crest my windows.

Your moves just like the black hole in the water.

So unpredictable.

You hurt and you're not in the realities and even the dreams.

Never show you my perplexes and as I'm floating weightless and direction-less.

~ ~

** This moment

I feel empty.

Nothing, it is empty

Waiting for

Your moves.

So that

I could drift away from this emptiness**

(Eric Fan, 2010)

[copied, edited, and translated, from one of the Soda Green's chinese song, Space]

OneRepublic - Secrets

OneRepublic - Secrets

I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kinda boring
Need something that I can confess
Til' all my sleeves are stained red
From all the truth that I've said
Come by it honestly I swear
Thought you saw wink, no
I've been on the brink, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

My god, amazing how we got this far
It's like we're chasing all those stars
Who's driving shiny big black cars
And everyday I see the news
All the problems that we could solve
And when a situation rises
Just write it into an album
Singing straight, too cold
I don't really like my flow, no, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

Oh, got no reason, got not shame
Got no family I can blame
Just don't let me disappear
I'mma tell you everything

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line

Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

All my secrets away, All my secrets away

Some thoughts on this meaningful song:

Love this song very much. Cannot stop myself play this song every moment. Dear people, I will not telling you all any secrets cause I don't have the secrets that you want/wish to listen.

This is the truth and I’m telling you this honestly. Don’t really care about whether you’re sincere or insincere. I’m here adsum. I am either what you want here or what you don’t want here. I showed myself uncovered here. How about you people? Cheers.

The relief and the "WOW"

Finally...

Very tiring UCSIU WOW Food Fair 2010 is over.

What can I say? It is just tired.

And my backbone is still pain until now.

Anyway, its really a sweet and bitter experience.

No more next time please...

I guess everyone will say so! LOL.

Proudly present

"RIDATO"

by

Love FOOODduh Sdn Bhd. =)

Mixture of 3 different ball shaped foods

and serve with

homemade soya mayonnaise.

Yummy!

I know it looks like Takoyaki in pasar malam.

But this is definitely

more healthier and tastier! XD

100% guarantee! *wink wink*

"RI.DA.TO"

Our promotion board/poster. 100% Handmade!

Credits to Corliss & Chun Shien.

The fish really looks so real.

Good job!!!

*Eric likes this*

The great people. =)

Glad to have you all.

*Eric Loves this*

Sorry for not being a good leader by the way.

Cheese!

Thanks to all of you.

Our hardworks finally get paid.

I will definitely never forget the moment.

Which moment? I bet all of you know it.

Can't wait for our celebration party. =)

Had a short break with my dearest sister

Jenifer,

before the food fair.

Miss you much! Very very much.

Finally able to meet you after 7 months!

Hohoho~ =) =) =)

Thanks for the souvenirs too!

Movies, shopping, eating, drinking, gossiping and chit-chatting,

always are our favourite routine activities.

*Eric super loves this*

I know You love Me.

xoxo

Welcome back, darling.

Don't look back for what had happened.

Just let it be and enjoy your life now. =)

All the best and good luck in your job hunting process!

~~~~~

Short trip in Fraser Hill on one of the weekend in Jun.

Kinda relaxed and enjoyed.

Apparently,

My arms were not strong enough to play archery.

Thanks again, great people.

For making me laugh happily

and

sending the sunshine into

my life.

=)

"The aims for the future?"

If yes,

what is the chances and probability of hitting the target?

I doubted towards myself at that moment.

Lastly, am I really happy?

I really don't know.

Cause I am searching for the answer too.

I guess I am. Hmmm

Today's quote from Eric: I'm malaise. I'm sleepy and not enough sleep. =P

Some thoughts...

Dilemma in doing course selection. 3 more days to go. Sigh...

What should I do? Phobia in making choices.

Every step taken and choices made is crucial now. HELP!!!

To someone: I really enjoy my single life now.

Being in single life gave me a chance to love myself more.

And at last, I think I'm not ready yet.

3/7

他说他喜欢在那里 逛逛

二十二岁了的 大孩子 XD

因为他说 在那里

有少许像身在国外的感觉

挚友，生日快乐。=)

祝你早日达成你的 梦想

帮我到美国 走走看看

原谅我不是一个很好的
死党加室友.

十多年了 我还是那个死样

谢谢你的忍耐度. 真的.

二十二岁 生日快乐。

cool night post

Someone want me to be positive.

SO,

I tried to smile.

I really tried to be happy.

The situations always forced me to give a face expression like this.

Uncountable & unfinished tasks, homeworks, tests, and assignments.

Did anyone know that I'm suffocating?

At the end of the day, here came another bad news.

Bad news,

Please do bear with me for sometimes.

I do understand that the day will come at last.

BUT

Please come when I'm READY. Okay?

I'm not ready yet.

I'm still training my HEART.

=___=

Wonder where had been the good news gone?

Eric don't like this. Never.

Today's quote from Eric: "I'm not Emo."

p/s: I know it might be another climb for me. I think I'm able to make the mountains to move again after a proper rest. Just too tired somehow. God, I'm asking for your help now, please do bless my grandma and be her side always. She had been hospitalized. Get well soon, grandma. I'll try my best to go back and visit you.

Experiment

Back to busy practical life.

Don't you think that life is just like what we were always did in experiments?

We experimenting new things in our life every moment, never stop.

We will only stop until we got the result that we want.

Do we have or do we need the objectives?

If we got it, how will the conclusion be?

This is what I am wonder always.

-

-

-

The BLOODY lab session.

One of the most interesting lab session so far.

The "murderess" that took away my blood.

She even applied alcohol on my middle finger

before started her actions. So humane.

Random 1: Tell me I look like a professional science student please.

p/s: I'm not afraid of blood. BUT I do afraid of this little needle (or can I call it stapler?)

that can shocked you anytime!

"1st blood" taking from the middle finger.

I think I had lost more than 10 ml of blood here.

Oh yeah, my blood type is B+. Same with my mum. =)

Random 2: Say Hi5! Fibrin did their job so efficiently.

My blood clotted/dried rather fast.

Random 3: Waiting result from the instrument.

Each took about 150-200 sec.

(and I'm keep on Leona Lewis all the times while waiting...)

Done. BUT, the story not yet end.

Punched by another vampire by using the

same scary needle on my index finger.

Glucose concentration in my blood, 0.749 mmol/L.

Am I sweet enough? I bet I am. jkjk

LOL

Random 4: The instrument.

There are 101 machine only in this college.

I can smell the odor of fishes somehow.

Random 5: The result.

TG/TAG: 1.35 mmol/L, Cholesterol: less than 2.59 mmol/L

TG got a little bit higher although it is in the range as I searched from the some pages.

Hmmm. I don't want to on diet at my this young age!

Tell me it will decrease!

The tasks after having fun.

You saw it? TAG is related to CVD,

a.k.a cardiovascular disease. a.k.a heart attack. OMG~

Anyway, mum told me to consult doctor

or

do another test at a better equipped lab. =.='''

I still wanna eat KFC and Char Koay Teow leh.

Random 6: Apparently, this is not a photo taken at a random scene.

"ai yan dao...."

Random 7

Lady with hands on her front said: "What do you want from me?

We divorce ba!"

Lady with spec said: "I'm innocent."

xoxo

Random 8: Passions, dreams. =)

Tell me I'm not dreaming please.

I am trying my best now to archive it.

It might be can't be done for both.

But I'll just keep on trying

no matter how harsh are the situations.

Oh yeah, congratulations to Cheah Cheng

for being selected by AirAsia.

Damn envy you la wei!

You deserve it cause you really put a lot of efforts into it!

Well done!

*Eric likes this*

Random 9: Sick while having FPP quiz.

Flu, and sneezed non stop for whole day.

Couldn't even open my eyes properly.

What a pity restless hectic uni life! Sigh.

The tired leg and so do the soul. "Eric Walker"

Bad news came to me continuously this recently. It was so fast...

Seriously, I had not yet show my response and yet need to digest it.

Wonder when it will stop. Cause I'm really freaking tired.

Little wishlist that I want it so badly this recently:

-Get drunk with bgfs =P

-Still the same, BREAK/TRAVEL;

-Free them from this harsh situation.

-Free from annoyed matters.

It's 1.50 a.m now. I think I should off now. That's all. =) xoxo

Today's quote from Eric: "I want you so badly is my only wish."

Nites peeps. Cheers.