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Update: "Best" Ambassador Ever.

2011-08-08T00:11:00.000-07:00

Posting with BenQ. XD

I love BenQ! Lol

It's had been a while I never update my blog...

Well, I guess it's time for me to do so.

Dear friends, just wanna let you all know

I'm still alive and I'm fine. :D

Busy for my part time job and so do my FYP this recently.

Both of these photos shown were taken

for the purpose of to claim my salary.

Kinda weird huh? =.='''

This is the 1st ever part time job that I needed to do so. Other than that,

I need to do the inventory and compile my own commission list too!

Anyway, this is also one of the most relax job ever.

Met a lot of funny people in Low Yat and The Mines too. :D

It's August now, I'm glad that everything is on the right track.

Hopefully I'm manage to finish my lab works and thesis as planned.

Although something not so fun was happened due to the selfishness of

some people, but I, know that as long as I did my part well, everything is gonna be ok.

After thesis, I'm going to start my 4 months internship with a

Food Science/Nutrition related company which around

end of October or the 1st week of November.

Well, it is a MUST for me to do so in order to graduate.

I'm wondering whether can I fake it? Don't feel like working as a Trainee leh.

Haven't really go and hunt for any job yet because I'm so lazy to do so.

Time flies.

Can't believe my study life is coming to the end soon.

Like spent a lot of time on it. And it is just a degree.

Am I going to further? I don't know.

At this moment I just hope that my FYP can go smoothly until viva.

*praying hard*

Sneak Peek

2011-05-18T08:43:00.000-07:00

大姐出嫁了,

这是我们家第一次办喜事

还真的是忙得不可开交.

那是一个难忘值得高兴的夜晚

因为你是我们心目中

最美丽的新娘.

虽然

还有两个礼拜

才是正式出门的日子

可是我已经感觉到

爸妈已经很舍不得妳了.

好啦

祝福妳和姐夫永远幸福啦

拜托就别那么的凶了啦.

一定要手牵着手

然后给我跟姐夫白头到偕老. :D

赶快生一个小我二十四岁的外甥给我抱抱.

这几年真的是辛苦妳了,

我会赶快把妳的重担全部都啃过来的.

♥♥♥谢谢妳♥♥♥

要送你的嫁妆就先欠着妳先吧 okay?

我会努力做到我所承诺过妳的事情. =)

婆婆

2011-03-17T06:04:00.000-07:00

3月6日那一天是您的生日.

我和姐都回到了家去探访在医院养病中的您

猛然的发现到才一阵子没见到您,

顿时憔悴了很多.

那天大家都在病房里,

很开心的一起拍了很多照片

虽然大家都很清楚为什么会聚在一起的原因,

纵使心里面有多么的伤心, 但为了要完成您的心愿,

我们还是开心的笑了.

我永远无法忘记当时的您是笑得多么的灿烂.

3月9日的晚上

医生告诉爸说您已经进入了昏迷状态

心电图上的反应,

是您告诉爸说您想回家的意愿

这也是您给我们最后的无声讯息.

到了凌晨, 妹妹便哭着打电话来说

您在抵达家里不久后便永远的离开了我们.

或许您的心愿爸都帮您一一完成了

对于这个花花世界您再也没有任何留恋

所以您想脱离病痛的折磨回到天父那里去.

当我再一次看到您、再握住您的手的时候,

您已经是冷冰冰的躺在那里了.

爸说您离开的时候

是安详的不带任何痛苦的.

所以叫我别哭, 那是主给的恩宠

我不哭因为我要永远当您的乖孙儿.

婆婆, 对不起原谅我当时没有陪在您身旁.

3月13日

是您在家里的最后一天.

到了那一刻我终于感觉到

失去亲人是一件多么伤心的事实.

再也忍不住的眼泪不停的往下流.

对我来说这是多么不能接受的事实啊..

我还没穿上毕业袍和您拍照让您为我的成就感到骄傲

我也还没有亲手的烹调您传授的芋头扣肉让您试试

您也还没看到大姐穿上那美丽的婚纱...

婆婆

愿您安息

我会牢牢地记住

您曾经教会我的每一样事情.

教会我做人的道理.

我会永远永远怀念您的

我爱您.

勇气

2011-03-08T06:29:00.000-08:00

有人说过

勇气

不是天生就有的

而是一天一天累积的

勇气

我现在需要你.

你在那里?

February Update 1 - Chinese New Year and thesis

2011-02-14T00:36:00.000-08:00

Back from the celebration of Chinese New Year.

Hey guys, how was the celebration? Hope all of you have fun thou.

*Happy very belated bunny Chinese New Year* :D

Hopefully I'm not the latest one to wish you all. =P

The season of reading is here right after the holiday.

I guess this time I really need to take it serious and move on.

No more jocking and sleeping in the future please!

Thesis titles were released before I went back to Penang for CNY.

Although I didn't get what I wanted but I'm glad that I'm not alone.

Jeng jeng jeng...My thesis title is " Effect of ethanol concentration, solid to solvent ration and extraction time on TFC, DPPH and Catechin content of crassna leaf."

Tell me it is not complicated at all please. crassna is one of the plant that can be found in Malaysia and planted commercially. It's leaves contained the antioxidant compound . I even don't know what Catechin, TFC, and DPPH are before get assigned to this tile. =.=

But as quoted from a Chinese phrase, "since you're here just settle at here". Hopefully I can finish this longest "lab report" ever with a good result to my supervisor and so do my Mum.

My supervisor, who is Dr Ivan is just fine and fun enough. He had guided us a lot in this research. Hopefully I'm able to meet his requirement until the end of research.

Glad that four of us (me and another 3 batch mates) are under his supervised even-thou he gave us a lot of homework. >.<

Well, talked about the journals reading...Oh man, it really kills!

Don't you think that the words are too small to be read?

They KO-ed me perfectly too. By hiding themselves when I wanted them so badly.

I think I had spent more time on sciencedirect.com rather than Facebook since last week.

Oh yeah not to forget,

Wish you all have a happy valentine's day too. =)

Fyi, I celebrated 1 out of 22 valentine in my life. And lastly,

I'm single and available now. lol

I love journals and they love me too!

Cheers to the New Bunny Year~ Huat ar!!!~

Best regards,

Eric Fan

xoxo

p/s: Sometimes, I would rather to be the person who is leaving. But when is my turn? I'm losing my patience gradually and yet silently... At this moment, I still can't believe that three of you already departed to Aussie on this morning. I feel damn regret now because I had missed too many gathering sessions with you all especially with Lee Na. I promise I'll miss you all always. :D Take good care and study hard at there please

1st post of 2011

2011-01-13T22:04:00.000-08:00

Hey Guys, happy belated new year. How are you all?

Well, finally I'm back to KL now.

My longest ever break was just fabulous.

Being treated like a king in hometown.

Mum & Dad, Thank you. Love ya! :D

This is the last semester for me to go for

the final examinations, classes and lab reports.

Just chose my thesis title for my final year project.

I'm kinda worry whether will I get what I want?

Eight more months to go and I will be freed. Excited.

A brand New Year, must come with some new resolutions and new hopes.

One of my resolution for this year is to get rid of my few bad habits.

2011 is a year that many good things will happen. Agree?

Hopefully everything will go smoothly so that

I'm manage to finish everything as planned.

Cheers~ people. Wish you all will have a good good year. :D

I know you love me. xoxo

Regards, Eric

ps: All the best to Mr Bryan who will depart to Swiss next CNY and Miss Wei Na, Lee Na and Huan Ting who will depart to Aussie on this valentine. Will miss you all! Have fun, and study hard there. Take care!

告别奔波

2010-12-06T06:38:00.000-08:00

吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉吃饭上班吃饭下班吃饭睡觉

终于等到了

最后一天.

失散了接近两个月

部落格, 久违了.

我想我还是一样吧.

只是

依旧的有点累.

因为

工作让我奔波,

忙碌让我疲惫.

纵使

问题依然存在着,

但这一次

我想任性的放肆.

还剩下八个月

那是并不容易过的两个学期.

大约三个礼拜的休息时间,

请告诉我一点也不奢侈.

我们

明年见?

21.9

the enormous press energy

2010-09-27T22:50:00.000-07:00

Stress, very stress, super duper stress!!!

I'm just stressed to the max now.

Tomorrow will be my food engineering midterm test.

I had been told that there will be only 2 questions in the paper.

1 for calculation and another for theory part.

20% belongs to the calculation part while another 5% is for the theory part.

This 25% will combine with other assessments to make a total 60% coursework for this subject. 25%/60%, quite a big number huh?

Wonder can I even get a 5% from that 25%. :S

I admit that I'm still very blur at this moment although

I'm gonna attend the test in the time less than 24 hours.

Law of mass conservation, material balance, energy balance and etc...

They are killing me softly and yet cruelly.

Can I borrow Time Machine from Doraemon?

So that I can escape to the future rather than stay at the current moment.

It is really hard for me to reverse the word of stressed into desserts now.

The stress level I'm facing had exceed what I faced last semester.

Worsen insomnia, worsen losses of appetite, and Irritable Bowel Syndrome.

Mum keep saying never mind to me.

But that never mind seems like not enough to comfort me.

It is really not easy for a student like me who is very weak in maths and physics

to conquer engineering. (even only the fundamentals)

Just hope for a pass for this subject.

Hope that I'm not greedy.

I'm approaching to the end of my study life.

I will try my best anyway and wish to proceed everything smoothly.

So obstacles, do stay 10,000km away from me!!!

It's time to move on after I finished mumbling here.

*Imma gonna do it!!! Pray hard*

p/s: To someone, thanks for your encouragements and supports that are never end. I appreciate it always. =)

abc

2010-09-14T12:41:00.001-07:00

September finally is here. Indeed, autumn had started in some of country like Japan. I think the maple leafs in Canada should be very colorful now. Either in dark brownish red color or reddish yellow color. Can imagine huh? As compare to those colorful maple leafs, my life is the same. It's dull. The time right now is pointing at 4a.m. I still can't sleep and feel very energetic. Sigh. Having insomnia lately. Again, it is caused by the same problem. Stress! ROAR!

Let's talking about my studies... (I know is kinda boring, but it had been too long I do not update my blog so just let me blah few sentences. =P) Hmmm... Taking 2 final year subjects in a short semester, everything were squeezed into 7 weeks. Quizzes, assignments, midterms = breathless! Well, ain't not fun at all! I do admit that sometime I like to say hectic this word for no reason even thou I am not in the situation. But now, I really mean it. It is just HECTIC. Never end. Sigh~~

Although hectic life never leave me, but I had learnt quite a numbers of new things from the nutrition lecturer and kinda enjoy the class too. Just finished done the quiz for the subject today...ermm... Kinda speechless while answering the questions. Was the 1st quiz after 6 lectures and I think most of the answers that I wrote are not exist in the notes! LOL! What to do? Got no sufficient time to do the revision after browsing through them "cincai-ly" at the 1st time. Need to swallow 8 sets of lecture notes that are quite thick with so many words filled in each slides. Somemore 2 of them were freshly made! (taught today n quiz immediately on tomorrow) Oh please. I'm not godlike and I think I screwed it.

I think the main reason of screwed the quiz is.... -> ma brain cells keep telling me that I'm still in the semester break and this explained why I can't really focus/concentrate well while doing revision too. And yet, here come the food engineering subject too! =(

Maths & physics love me but I don't love them. Sigh!!! I was born to be insensitive towards numbers, calculus, algebra and formulas. Feel sipek tension every time attend the lecture. Ma mind is totally blank when the lecturer standing beside me and observing me answer the questions! If Gennie is here, I wanna beg him makes me brilliant in maths!

Realize a important lesson via nutrition lectures and also by sharing of few stories among few buddies. I found that this "theory"can actually applied to our daily life. So this is what I wanna share in this blog and it is known as ABC triangle. A stand for the antecedents, while B is stand for the behavior, and lastly the C is known as Consequences here. Antecedent is also known as the causes. While I guess everyone knew what is behavior and consequences.

[So let us do some case study here, given a case that a person is gaining fat. ]

By using the ABC triangle to diagnose it, the antecedent diagnosed was, the person can't cope with the stress due to exam and hence caused the behavior of craving for foods uncontrolled, snacking, and etc. Whereas the consequences for this case will be weight gain.

For some of the people, they will eventually stop those foolish actions when they realized that they are having weight gained, and will start to do some changes is behavior.

Definitely, there are also some people will keep drowning themselves in the stage of behavior by ignoring the consequences. Those who keep drowning one will just keep moving in the triangle, and their life will become so narrow, become fatter and fatter and finally loss their confident. Hence, they stucked there and might not been escape out for life.

For those who had escaped, they are free and live like a normal person again.

Despite the antecedent, the person literally can control himself/herself by modify their behavior/attitudes. I did saw some of the success cases and the failure cases around me. After being a HUMAN for so many years, I do realize that behavior of a person plays a big role in life. It can send you high up to the heaven and even drag you fall into the hell.

Thanks, Mummy. For let me know how important it is.

Opps. Seems like writing too much.

What I wrote above just my very personal opinion. Okay?

Eric signing out here.

Today's quote: To somebody: I know you love me. xoxo =P

Empty

2010-08-14T10:38:00.000-07:00

You provoke me to navigates in the emptiness.

I gone crazy again and again in the middle of the night

I wonder whether the waves are your whereabouts.

Once again,I'm drowning in the flood

Countless emotional tidal waves crest my windows.

Your moves just like the black hole in the water.

So unpredictable.

You hurt and you're not in the realities and even the dreams.

Never show you my perplexes and as I'm floating weightless and direction-less.

~ ~

** This moment

I feel empty.

Nothing, it is empty

Waiting for

Your moves.

So that

I could drift away from this emptiness**

(Eric Fan, 2010)

[copied, edited, and translated, from one of the Soda Green's chinese song, Space]

OneRepublic - Secrets

2010-07-26T08:22:00.000-07:00

OneRepublic - Secrets

I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kinda boring
Need something that I can confess
Til' all my sleeves are stained red
From all the truth that I've said
Come by it honestly I swear
Thought you saw wink, no
I've been on the brink, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

My god, amazing how we got this far
It's like we're chasing all those stars
Who's driving shiny big black cars
And everyday I see the news
All the problems that we could solve
And when a situation rises
Just write it into an album
Singing straight, too cold
I don't really like my flow, no, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

Oh, got no reason, got not shame
Got no family I can blame
Just don't let me disappear
I'mma tell you everything

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line

Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

All my secrets away, All my secrets away

Some thoughts on this meaningful song:

Love this song very much. Cannot stop myself play this song every moment. Dear people, I will not telling you all any secrets cause I don't have the secrets that you want/wish to listen.

This is the truth and I’m telling you this honestly. Don’t really care about whether you’re sincere or insincere. I’m here adsum. I am either what you want here or what you don’t want here. I showed myself uncovered here. How about you people? Cheers.

The relief and the "WOW"

2010-07-20T05:51:00.000-07:00

Finally...

Very tiring UCSIU WOW Food Fair 2010 is over.

What can I say? It is just tired.

And my backbone is still pain until now.

Anyway, its really a sweet and bitter experience.

No more next time please...

I guess everyone will say so! LOL.

Proudly present

"RIDATO"

Love FOOODduh Sdn Bhd. =)

Mixture of 3 different ball shaped foods

and serve with

homemade soya mayonnaise.

Yummy!

I know it looks like Takoyaki in pasar malam.

But this is definitely

more healthier and tastier! XD

100% guarantee! *wink wink*

"RI.DA.TO"

Our promotion board/poster. 100% Handmade!

Credits to Corliss & Chun Shien.

The fish really looks so real.

Good job!!!

*Eric likes this*

The great people. =)

Glad to have you all.

*Eric Loves this*

Sorry for not being a good leader by the way.

Cheese!

Thanks to all of you.

Our hardworks finally get paid.

I will definitely never forget the moment.

Which moment? I bet all of you know it.

Can't wait for our celebration party. =)

Had a short break with my dearest sister

Jenifer,

before the food fair.

Miss you much! Very very much.

Finally able to meet you after 7 months!

Hohoho~ =) =) =)

Thanks for the souvenirs too!

Movies, shopping, eating, drinking, gossiping and chit-chatting,

always are our favourite routine activities.

*Eric super loves this*

I know You love Me.

xoxo

Welcome back, darling.

Don't look back for what had happened.

Just let it be and enjoy your life now. =)

All the best and good luck in your job hunting process!

~~~~~

Short trip in Fraser Hill on one of the weekend in Jun.

Kinda relaxed and enjoyed.

Apparently,

My arms were not strong enough to play archery.

Thanks again, great people.

For making me laugh happily

and

sending the sunshine into

my life.

"The aims for the future?"

If yes,

what is the chances and probability of hitting the target?

I doubted towards myself at that moment.

Lastly, am I really happy?

I really don't know.

Cause I am searching for the answer too.

I guess I am. Hmmm

Today's quote from Eric: I'm malaise. I'm sleepy and not enough sleep. =P

Some thoughts...

Dilemma in doing course selection. 3 more days to go. Sigh...

What should I do? Phobia in making choices.

Every step taken and choices made is crucial now. HELP!!!

To someone: I really enjoy my single life now.

Being in single life gave me a chance to love myself more.

And at last, I think I'm not ready yet.

3/7

2010-07-03T05:41:00.000-07:00

他说他喜欢在那里逛逛

二十二岁了的大孩子 XD

因为他说在那里

有少许像身在国外的感觉

挚友，生日快乐。=)

祝你早日达成你的梦想

帮我到美国走走看看

原谅我不是一个很好的
死党加室友.

十多年了我还是那个死样

谢谢你的忍耐度. 真的.

二十二岁生日快乐。

cool night post

2010-06-25T10:23:00.000-07:00

Someone want me to be positive.

SO,

I tried to smile.

I really tried to be happy.

The situations always forced me to give a face expression like this.

Uncountable & unfinished tasks, homeworks, tests, and assignments.

Did anyone know that I'm suffocating?

At the end of the day, here came another bad news.

Bad news,

Please do bear with me for sometimes.

I do understand that the day will come at last.

BUT

Please come when I'm READY. Okay?

I'm not ready yet.

I'm still training my HEART.

=___=

Wonder where had been the good news gone?

Eric don't like this. Never.

Today's quote from Eric: "I'm not Emo."

p/s: I know it might be another climb for me. I think I'm able to make the mountains to move again after a proper rest. Just too tired somehow. God, I'm asking for your help now, please do bless my grandma and be her side always. She had been hospitalized. Get well soon, grandma. I'll try my best to go back and visit you.

Experiment

2010-06-15T08:56:00.000-07:00

Back to busy practical life.

Don't you think that life is just like what we were always did in experiments?

We experimenting new things in our life every moment, never stop.

We will only stop until we got the result that we want.

Do we have or do we need the objectives?

If we got it, how will the conclusion be?

This is what I am wonder always.

The BLOODY lab session.

One of the most interesting lab session so far.

The "murderess" that took away my blood.

She even applied alcohol on my middle finger

before started her actions. So humane.

Random 1: Tell me I look like a professional science student please.

p/s: I'm not afraid of blood. BUT I do afraid of this little needle (or can I call it stapler?)

that can shocked you anytime!

"1st blood" taking from the middle finger.

I think I had lost more than 10 ml of blood here.

Oh yeah, my blood type is B+. Same with my mum. =)

Random 2: Say Hi5! Fibrin did their job so efficiently.

My blood clotted/dried rather fast.

Random 3: Waiting result from the instrument.

Each took about 150-200 sec.

(and I'm keep on Leona Lewis all the times while waiting...)

Done. BUT, the story not yet end.

Punched by another vampire by using the

same scary needle on my index finger.

Glucose concentration in my blood, 0.749 mmol/L.

Am I sweet enough? I bet I am. jkjk

LOL

Random 4: The instrument.

There are 101 machine only in this college.

I can smell the odor of fishes somehow.

Random 5: The result.

TG/TAG: 1.35 mmol/L, Cholesterol: less than 2.59 mmol/L

TG got a little bit higher although it is in the range as I searched from the some pages.

Hmmm. I don't want to on diet at my this young age!

Tell me it will decrease!

The tasks after having fun.

You saw it? TAG is related to CVD,

a.k.a cardiovascular disease. a.k.a heart attack. OMG~

Anyway, mum told me to consult doctor

do another test at a better equipped lab. =.='''

I still wanna eat KFC and Char Koay Teow leh.

Random 6: Apparently, this is not a photo taken at a random scene.

"ai yan dao...."

Random 7

Lady with hands on her front said: "What do you want from me?

We divorce ba!"

Lady with spec said: "I'm innocent."

xoxo

Random 8: Passions, dreams. =)

Tell me I'm not dreaming please.

I am trying my best now to archive it.

It might be can't be done for both.

But I'll just keep on trying

no matter how harsh are the situations.

Oh yeah, congratulations to Cheah Cheng

for being selected by AirAsia.

Damn envy you la wei!

You deserve it cause you really put a lot of efforts into it!

Well done!

*Eric likes this*

Random 9: Sick while having FPP quiz.

Flu, and sneezed non stop for whole day.

Couldn't even open my eyes properly.

What a pity restless hectic uni life! Sigh.

The tired leg and so do the soul. "Eric Walker"

Bad news came to me continuously this recently. It was so fast...

Seriously, I had not yet show my response and yet need to digest it.

Wonder when it will stop. Cause I'm really freaking tired.

Little wishlist that I want it so badly this recently:

-Get drunk with bgfs =P

-Still the same, BREAK/TRAVEL;

-Free them from this harsh situation.

-Free from annoyed matters.

It's 1.50 a.m now. I think I should off now. That's all. =) xoxo

Today's quote from Eric: "I want you so badly is my only wish."

Nites peeps. Cheers.

深思的抉择

2010-05-28T00:15:00.000-07:00

终于

决定了

那个方向.

我会努力

好好的往那个

不易方向前进

无论是多么的困难.

因为

我无法

向自己的真心说谎.

我无法

束缚自己渴望已久的自由.

那想看透世界的

心实在灭不了.

原谅我是无法和自由

分开的射手男孩

让我任性多一次.

就这一次

好吗?

无法忘了每次从那椭圆窗口望出去的

心情及感慨.

浩瀚蓝色的天空

我期待

我们再度相遇的时候.

*我想做到.我要做到. I gotta do it =)*

康乃馨盛开的节日

2010-05-08T06:41:00.000-07:00

妈咪

母亲节快乐

我爱您

谢谢您，

怀胎九月然后生下了我。

谢谢您，

把我抚养成人。

谢谢您，

带给我的一切

我都很珍惜他们。

唯有您，

永远提供我无私的爱。

唯有您，

永远都是我的避风港。

原谅我，

常常向您吐诉的不满和抱怨。

我会好好用功读书的

以便以后能够好好孝顺您。

你的宝贝和永远爱您的

不孝子

定帆.晋逢笔

Sleepless

2010-05-02T11:49:00.000-07:00

This moment, I'm afraid.

I don't know how should I face the things in the future.

I keep telling myself not to do it, and yet I made it.

But the feeling hiding behind it make me feel so uncomfortable.

Another new long semester starts few more hours later.

But now I'm having insomnia and situated in a dilemma mood.

I don't know what am I afraid of.

I don't know what am I worry about.

I hope I'm still able to be myself when hectic life is around the corner.

Maybe I think too much.

But i think it's time to make those boundaries.

I need it to protect myself and everybody from being get hurts.

Wish me good luck okay? I can do it.

All the best for me in a NEW semester.

很高

2010-04-07T03:18:00.001-07:00

那道墙，还是很高

我努力爬过了

但它

却不停的继续长高

告诉我

什么都好

好让我能够继续

撑到终点

不宁の夏

2010-04-04T20:54:00.000-07:00

阳光爆晒着

我的世界却

还在下着大雨.

但我从来不胆怯.

乌云请你走开好吗?

我想霸占这一刻的温暖.

烦恼请你也走开好吗?

我只想拥有这一刻的宁静.

橙空

2010-03-20T12:19:00.000-07:00

昨夜

橙色天空的凌晨
陪伴着我
我和它聊了起来
但是我们却很安静.

它说它很想那样
我也说我很想这样

我们交换了秘密

它紧盯着我要我守着
我同样的也要它帮我藏起来

我把责任
应用在这段对话里
我开始感觉沉重了起来

责任这两个字的意思
几乎被我遗忘了
它提醒了我

如果人生
不必对任何事负责任.
你说多好

Sick

2010-03-18T07:27:00.000-07:00

YY, I'm sick again because of pasar malam's "si ham"! This time is not from Char Koay Teow jo, is from mee curry. T.T
(I guess you won't see this.)
Went to toilet N times jorrrr since afternoon.
Diarrhea
Stomachache like got a Panasonic washing machine inside.
No appetite.
Headache.
Feel a little bit cool.

I wanna go home.
Michael Buble bring me home please.
I'm just too strong for too long.
I'm too far from home.
I am not IRONman
I am just simply Eric Fan
I am not anyone when I'm sick.
Long time never been sick until like that already.
My head are so heavy so do shoulder too.
Like 300 tones of tasks on it. Need a break. :'(
Annoyed things go far far.

P/S* She is gone. Forever from my heart. I'm not hypnotize myself.

After the tweet

2010-03-07T09:48:00.000-08:00

I wanna learn something NEW. Any suggestions?
Language? Music Instrumental? Dance? Martial arts?

I wanna get out from the BORED!!!
I don't want to be a skilless person anymore and I'm serious this time.

Surrounded by many emo people this recently.
I'm trying hard myself not to get influenced by them.
Some people emo because they are lonely due to their life is not facsinating enough, emo because of studies, emo for nothing, emo becaue they don't know what is the step shoud take at next, and etc.
I chosen not to speak anything. Just let it be.

Homeworks made me feels suffocated.
And I'm moving slow.
Moving slow because I'm lack of motivation
But, everything is on the track.
So, I chosen not to be emo.

*Thanks for your concerns that is with loves always. =)
I will look for the motivation(s) in order for me to keep moving on.

2010-02-24T03:57:00.000-08:00

Got my twitter account today! Come and follow me.~
https://twitter.com/EricFan88
Still very new in using Twitter.
Hope it is another useful tool that help me to cure my boredness.

Finished 2 reports, 2 quizes, and 2 mid term tests within 5 days. Phew~
Don't feel like wanna mention the things that had over here.
Some made me quite emo due to the "high level questions"
This is what I had done after came back from Lunar New Year holiday.

BUT...This is not the end yet.
Busy days gonna arrived!
Current pending tasks: 2 more tests to go, 3 presentations+ 3 assignments on hand, more reports are coming.
Current mood status: Keep slacking, keep keep slacking. Unmotivated.

*I need a motivation. Just anything.

I know is a little bit too late.
But since now still in the Lunar New Year period,
Eric wishing everyone here will have a good good tiger year. Roar~
For those who is working, wish you all can earn as much as money that you can, everything shun shun li li.
For those who is still studying, wish you all can score straight As! XD
The most important is wish everyone have a healthy body. Chiong ah!
Cheers for a new year.

墙

2010-02-07T07:19:00.000-08:00

那道墙, 有点高
我攀得有点累.
可是旅程一旦开始后
终点是必须到达的
目标

虽然有点累有点睏
距离终点还有一点远
但我会走下去
请给我一点耐性因为我有一点点焦急
请给我一点支持因为我也会有需要的时候

慢行

2010-01-30T08:44:00.000-08:00

发现

自己慢慢
习惯了
一个人的滋味
我享受一个人旅行的
那种感觉

虽然这里
一点也不陌生
可是熟悉不见了

我坚信
我会把它变成
那不可怕的敌人的

lil ordinary update post

2010-01-23T23:11:00.000-08:00

Finally finished my first 2 practical reports ever in this semester
after struggling and slacking for 2 days.
But I always knew it, there will be getting more and more
and Eric is going to become busier and busier.
Hmmm. :D Not bad la, anyway is a good opening. LOL
Pretty happy that I had spent my weekend for the practical reports
although it is kinda boring.
This made me feel that I am a good student. XD

Can't believe this is only my second post of blog in 2010.
Well, I always admit it. I'm just one of the lazy bug in this world.
Chinese New Year is near, mood to celebrate it getting lesser year by year.
Is this the consequence of being an adult? =.=
Bought myself few T-shirts during last december for Chinese New Year;
Still looking for a pair of good shoes, shirts and a short pants for myself. Wheee....

Went to Sunway Pyramid with my DCB gang on Friday.
I believe all of us are having a fun and crazy day at there and
the activity at night too. LOLOLx
So glad we are still able to take the 1 of the same subject in this semester.
Let's go to Chiong again soon ya!!!

Wanted to go for a trip so desperately this recently.
Apparently, I need more relax! So fxck up with tension life.
Wonder still can go to Redang or not?
Mum had stop me from travelling to the seaside or island this year. zzZzzZ Sien
Don't care so much already, if not deal
I'm planning to go for a cheap and affordable backpack travel alone somewhere else. V.V

2010

2010-01-05T03:51:00.000-08:00

Today is the 6th day of 2010.

Finally I had finished my 2 months contract with Zara boutique at mid valley megamall.
Well, as I mentioned it before, it is so tired.
Felt so happy and grateful because everyone around me are so kind and gave me a lot of helping hands always. Thanks to Ben, Esther, Derek, Kak Pazz, Siti, Ainis, Fie, Lucy, Kak Zu, Kak Azlina, Winnie, Fenny, Rainy, Valen, Stacia, Fernika and etc.
I will definitely miss the moments we eat lunch, cekodok, dinner, and the haji meal together, miss the moment we being so crazily together, miss the moments we eat nasi lemak at Bangsar but indeed not the busy time. LOL!

Take care you all. =) I’ll go back to visit you all once I’m free enough. Mid valley Zara team is the best! XD

Since the 2 months contract ended, it also meaning that my semester breaks were ended too. But there were many wonderful things were happened during this two months.
Thanks to my 2 bGFs that always by my side and created a precious memories together with me during that period.
December of 2009 is the most unforgettable December in my life. To my dearest Fer, although we were now 10,886 km apart but you are always on my mind. I’ll miss and love you always. Do take good care of yourself at Switzerland. Muacks.

Gone back to the normal life of what a student should be. Moved to a new hostel started this semester. It is nearer to the college and more convenience for me to go any places.
Feel satisfied with the facilities here overall and I hope I can stay at here until I graduate. Moving house is never been fun, it was so tired and exhausted. But I and JS are managed to move all the things without the helps from anybody! Good jobs man!
Taking 4 subjects in this semester, 3 subjects out of 4 is come with the lab practical. =.=
Eric is going to flood by practical reports very soon. Still in the first week of a new semester. Holiday mood is still around the corner. Damn! I feel so relax and so lazy to do anything after moved into the new hostel.

I should be borrow some books and make a preview on it but … Let me to relax first la! I promised myself will study very bery hard after this! XD
I wanna
1) eat steamboat,
2) watch few movies,
3) go back hometown
4) and cheong K!

I wanna revenge what I’m not managed to do during the 2 months semester break! This is because I think I got not more time to do it anymore after the beginning of the lab classes and unstoppable quizzes and tests.

So, I wanna play hard first and work hard continuously later!

A brand New Year of 2010 , new life started. Wishing everyone has a good year with good health and good wealth and a blast 1!

All the best and good luck to everyone and to me too. =)

Best regards,

-Eric.FaN-

Bye. My dear~

Took this photo after finished our tear dropping session. :'(

21

2009-12-16T04:45:00.000-08:00

Another year had past, I'm 21 right now.

Can't believe I can enter casino officially. ~.~

Had a great birthday celebration this year.

Thanks to my 2 best girlfriends, Fer and Ping, and the brothers too,

JimmyIce, BrYan Yan, Tony, and Wong.

Thanks for the plan, cakes, presents, and wishes.
Can see you all had put a lot of efforts on it. I appreciate it very much.
{PFF*} forever ya.

Here are the celebrations:

At 1st, all of us were having the dinner at TGI's Friday at Wangsa Walk Mall for the farewell of Fer that are going to Swiss. Planning to have a steamboat dinner at my house but ... XD
p/s: Paiseh for the failure of steamboat plan. LOLz. All of us are just too big head prawn! XD
The foods were too awesome. I believe we had enjoyed it a lot. This time, with the great people, good foods cheer me up! Haha...
Tricked by the waiter and waitress there, forced to sing a song. LOL
Finally I got some feeling of holiday!
2nd, Got cheated by the people that we were heading to Poppy and club since the main character are so hunger for club. BUT...
End up by reached at the 33th floor of Traders Hotel nearby KLCC, The Skybar.
White wine, cocktails, beers, blueberry cheesecakes and presents. These are the things I got it here. :D

I was forced to drink a cocktail with 60% of alcohol and tequila here. XD
Well, I do like the feeling of burning and redness after drinking those drinks. It makes me forgot all the stress. Trust me, it was really nice, and Eric definitely is not an alcoholic. LOL

Actually, Eric can’t accept the truth to become an adult so fast since he got too many things undone. Hope all can be done SOON! XD

Next day, went to Sunway Pyramid with “Lovely” Huan Ting. Have our dinner in Manhattan’s fish market after hesitate for so long. Finally ordered da seafood platter that I wanna eat so much after saw it since July. XD Again, good foods cheer me up. I’m destiny to become a food scientist cum nutritionist and dietician! LOL
Birthday boy got treated from the lovely lady~! A Baskin Robin ice cream and a handmade lovely oreo cheesecake. XD

Made few wishes while blowing the candles on the cake this year, wonder will it come true? Hope i’m not too greedy for the wishes...=)

Dear mum and dad, thanks for giving me life. I'm 21 right now. I will do my best in my future life so that I won't dissapoint both of you. I'll take good care of myself too. I know eventhough I'm apart from you all, but I know that you are by my side and support me always. Thanks to dearest Jenny, Connie and Vincent too. Muacks xNNN. Miss and Love you all always.

Good Luck and happy birthday again Eric. All the best to you. =)

The 1st self-taken photo during 21st. Was inspired by the sunshine to take this photo after received the blessing from God. It's a brand new page of life.

The memories of A-16-14.

The great people. Cheers!

The great foods. From TGI's Friday. FULL!!!

The brotherhood.

Ohhhh NOooooooooooooo! That moment is horrible and yet excited. LOL

Finally I'm 21.

PFF. Love both of you always.

The Cake. Blueberry cheesecake. Thanks to Yan Yan and Tony. =)

From Fer and Ping. Thanks. I love it so much!

From Dai Lou. Thanks too. I need it so much. XD

Make a wish(sssssss)!

Dinner at Manhattan's Fish Market next day. FULL again.

What should I eat first?

Baskin Robin. Thanks for the treat!

She is a good photographer.

Let's gain fat together! XD

Homemade and handmade lovely Oreo Cheese cake. XD

p/s: Thanks to those who greet me in Facebook and via sms too. I'll keep it all as very sweet memory and won't delete it. Photos were mainly uploaded by my dear BGF, Miss Jenifer to Facebook already. =) Thanks again.

Workaholic

2009-11-30T06:57:00.000-08:00

I saw moulds are growing on my blog
Kinda busy with my work this recently.
Finally got time to update it...
Time passed really fast, 1 month gone.
Holidays left 1 more month.

Well, talking about my jobs,
working in Zara is quite tiring.
There are damn many shirts in that shop!
But thanks to mum and dad
for lending me your precious car so that
I can save my time to travel.

Feel really grateful and
Thank God for giving me this job.
I do really learnt some lessons because
I knew that I should'nt be so racist anymore.
All the Malay colleagues are treating me so good.

Today off, but I had went back to Mid Valley. >.<
Joyce told HuanTing: Why he is working at there everyday
and yet wanna go back there lepak de? Not sien meh?
Eric: Because actually I wanna go to 1U de lor. But at last you need to work.
Waken up her from her sweet dream after read her blog and
stating that she wanna go to lepak and watch movie so much. XD

We had our high tea first before watch the movie.
Keep chit chating non with her in the cafe.
I'm so glad she is enjoying part of her holiday
so much in Penang while joining
her dancing competition.

Finally watched Twillight Saga, the New Moon.
Waited for this movie since July after watched
the movie trailer on YouTube
Very nice and romantic~ Bella is just too gorgeous!!!
The whole was good enough but i do feel that some people
might feel boring towards the movie because
there are not much conversations in some scenes.

Missed quite a lots of events too because of working.
1st-YS's wedding dinner. I'm so Sorry for ffk. Sorry to LouPo too. T.T
2nd-CB prom night. Did not attend at last after struggling for it for so many days.
3rd-SL's sister wedding dinner. Brother came back from UK but I did not manage get my off day go back Penang to meet him. ='(

I don't want to miss a thing anymore after this 2 months!
I don't like to do this at all. But yet the situation caused me cannot do anything.
p/s: To anyone who involved: Please do forgive me for being an absentee.
I need some money to pay for next semester's tuition fees. Really sorry.

Seems like writing too much today.
Eric wanna signing off now.
Happy December to everyone. Christmas is coming~XD Hohohoho
Good luck and all the best to my bGF, Fer, who is facing her final exam now.
But I don't think you will see this. =P

It's TNB fault

2009-10-23T00:50:00.000-07:00

It's all TNB's fault!!! You know why?
I should finished my final examination by yesterday.
But end up, I had lepak at Mid Valley
during the exam time together with my silly roomate.

All UCSI U students should know the reason why.
This is because TNB had caused this disaster!
TNB said they need to do the upgradation of
don't know what elctricity cabel in Cheras area,
and forced the college examination board to
postpone all the final examination papers
that will be held on 22/10 to 28/10.
Almost 1000++ of students were affected.
I totally can't believe I am one of the victim and
I cannot accept this truth too when
my fellas told me after we finished the first paper on 20th.
WeiNa and Joyce them had started to
kisiao-ing and complaint-ing
cause they cannot go to Genting anymore due to this reason.

At the end, the electricity supply at my college area
on yesterday had not been cut off.
As I know, only the electricity supply at Taman Len Sen
which is few kilometers away from my college had been cut off!
What a "good" news! Sigh. :'(
This made me felf very frustrated!

Now, I need to face the notes
for another week! Why?!
Why the upgradation have to be on 22nd?
If not, I should having my holidays now!
I got no any mood to do revision anymore
for my next paper since I already finished studying.
I don't like this feeling. It makes me feel guilty at the same time.

In fact, many people said this is a good and lucky incident
since I will have more time to study and prepared for it.
Maybe I should feel grateful but still haiz...
Hopefullly my study mood will come back to me very soon
*Keep praying...*

God Bless me and Good Luck for myself too. =)

Eric signing out here~

这天

2009-10-20T12:32:00.000-07:00

苏打绿-这天

疯狂的爱上这首歌
没有为什么，
就是纯碎的喜欢.
它
伴我渡过这考试难熬的时候
它
伴我渡过一晚又一晚寂寞的时候，
它
今夜又再伴着我写完这一个部落格了.
这首歌
让我最感触地部分是
主唱在副歌瓢着高音
潇洒地唱着
"让我握你的手让你握我的手彻底了解颤抖你会知道我..."

希望在那一天
当我在最无助的时候
你们和妳们
会跟我说这一句话.
因为那时我就会明白
你要表达的一切了
我期待。

PFF

2009-10-13T11:58:00.001-07:00

Ping, Fer, Eric during Fer's Convo

Happy gathering with both of You tonight.

Although my final is approaching at next week

and I haven't start to study yet. ='(

Both of you are so special to me always.

So sorry if my concern are not enough

to both of you in the past.

Meeting with both of you,

Let me forgot all the stress

Let me forgot all the unhappy matters.

I become the true Eric in front of you girls

that without wearing the mask. =P

I can't imagine how I survive during that tough time

in my life if without both of you. =)

lil update

2009-10-05T10:21:00.000-07:00

Last Mid-Term exam for this semester
will be held on tomorrow.
My mood is neutral this few days,
Well, I had study all the notes.
But the emptiness is killing me.
Did I really understand all the contains inside?

Semester break is coming and
I think I got no holidays.

Many things is annouying me now.
Plan to work but I got no job yet. Sienz =.=
Wish just to stay at home, do nothing,
rest well and get my healthy lifestyle back.

Why is me? I just could'nt take it
anymore sometimes.
Feeling like really need a break.
I really hope there will no any matter that could
annouying me in the future after I finished my studies.

Feeling like wanna give up many things this recently.
I keep telling myself not to do it but yet it is tough.
Cheating myself on those all the dreams is beautiful but in fact
it is impossible for me to get it is hurt. ='(

Laptop went crazy these few days,
formatted twice and the condition is still unstable.

Dear Mr Laptop:
Please be stable always until I graduate. I really did not have enough money
and no idea on how to change any of your acessories. You know I love you always.
I promise you to let you have more rest time start now. Please & Thanks...

Eric signing out here.
Wish me luck for my last mid term exam~

Gathering

2009-09-30T09:16:00.000-07:00

Just came back from my gang gathering.
Exhausted
But yet I'm happy
Never chat with you all guys
since our last gathering, May until now.
Finally 8 of us are here.
I miss you all, especially LeeTing and Vivien.
First time went to night market at 10pm++ LOL!
If mum knew it sure scold me.

Well, foods at chili's
that cost me RM100++
did not cheer me up.
But the warmth, the concerns
and the hugs
from you all, had comforted me.
Many things happen today.
I don't really want to mention
the disappointed
matters at college.
Feels like being fooled. =(
Hope I think too much.

I miss the days when we were studying in DCB.
Carrefour, Jusco, Swimming, MU, Jogging and Mamak-ing.
PD trip, the steamboat supper and the Langkawi trip too.
These all created a great impact in my heart and my memory.
Thanks guys.
Love you all. Hah!
Friends forever ya. Looking for our next fraser hill trip.

d'Dream

2009-09-24T03:22:00.000-07:00

原来梦想
真的
可以很远
可以很美
可以很大

它
让我发奋
让我努力
让我坚强
成为我前进的目标.

可是
有时它
让我变成了贪心的人
让我变成了自私的人
让我不择手段的达到目标

我并不想这样
真的不想.
如果果真有一天
我变成了那样

请你阻止我
提醒我放弃那个
让我变成
我不再是我的
梦想

Just a post

2009-09-23T08:04:00.000-07:00

There had been such a period of time
I did not write my blog in english.
Well, typing in chinese words
really drived me into crazy
caused I cannot write a good blog.
At the mean time, I'm kinda afraid
of my broken english that I wrote here
will let you laugh until you drop your teeth.
So, I decided not to be so poetic anymore.
I choose to express myself by writting this simple blog.
Now already is the 4th week of the semester,
This semester is damn rush
cause it is a short semester.
Tonnes of works, are waiting for me always.
Never ends. And keeps on increasing.
I felt extremely tired now but yet
satisfied with the works that I had done.
This is because at least I still
have something to rely on.
It is works for me,
I forgot all the unhappy matters,
I forgot the ways to be a emo person.
I forgot the truth that I am lonely,
When I'm concentrate on those works.
But don't know why, sometimes I just can
get angry easily. Sorry, to all my groupmates.
I just can't help and control it. Really sorry.
Just now Charlie told me she was sad,
I wish to help her but i don't know how.
But I know I am one of the most comfort friend
that you have. =P
Cheer up always ok? Hah~

我们

2009-09-18T20:21:00.000-07:00

过去
我真的
已经都让它们
通通的
过去了。

其实
我
还很在意
很想打听
很想再和
你们
在街上
偶尔的相遇

你们
还好吗?
吃饱了吗?
有过的很好吗?

原谅我当初
的执著
原谅我当初
的任性
原谅那时的
我放不下
自尊
原谅我那时
的幼稚
原谅我不够
理智
原谅我不够
成熟。

抱歉。

我
没有办法
把你们
都忘记。

是你们一直都住在
我的身体里
陪伴着我呼吸
是你们一直都在
和我一起
时时刻刻的
陪伴着我守护那时的回忆

有你们, 我和回忆不会再是敌人

*我祈祷着和你们下次的相遇

一百分

2009-09-16T23:50:00.000-07:00

我其实不想紧张
我其实不想烦躁
我其实不想忧虑
也不想焦虑不安

但我无法控制

我讨厌那时候的

自己因为

我无法掌握好自己的

情绪

我在那时候的我

失去了理智

很多时候

我真的只想把东西做好
我并不要求一百分
一百分对我来说
是多么的遥远

哪怕只有七八十分
对我而言已经很多了
我满足了我到达自己的
目标了不敢再要求多了

永远的一百分
永远只是属于
永恒的他
我要谢谢他。
因为他造就了
未满一百分
和不完美的
我

离

2009-09-11T22:43:00.000-07:00

离开

永远是带着

伤感的吗

离开

就不能带着

快乐的吗

离开

是能选择的吗

是谁能够给的吗

我是

多么的渴望飞翔

多么的渴望离开

追逐那尚未完成

的梦想

追逐

那自己曾经

对梦

的承诺

但

我少了翅膀

如果

有机会

等到

分离的那一天

我会开心的笑着

热泪盈眶

的祝福我自己

因为

在我眼里

分离

就是下一次

重逢

的开始

梦

2009-09-10T08:38:00.000-07:00

在梦里
我感觉得到
背负着的负担
突然很重
在梦里
我迷失了自己
我失控了
我就像疯子般的
不停的在奔跑
我没有预感
应该往那边跑
这并不是平时的我
我失去了
继续再走下去的
勇气.

一直
听到自己的
尖叫声后
我才惊醒了过来
果然又是
发了一场
虚惊的梦.
我不停的安慰着
自己.
我猛然发现
原来失去安全感
是一件
很恐怖的事情
我不希望
再有这样的梦
但同时
我想知道那梦
给我带来的启示.

明天一直都会更好的吧?
对吗?
因为我还在坚信着.

掉了

2009-09-08T06:33:00.000-07:00

心情掉了
什么事都
不想做了

我突然
只想静静的睡着
我突然
只想一个人忍着
我突然
只想把一切都忘了
我突然
想逃离现在的自己

我
想变
成熟点

我真的是唯一的吗
我真的是特别的吗
我真的是这样的吗

我有点累
我想逃

我只想
普通的安静的
过我自己
的生活
不再需要
那个假的面具
也不需要
那在意的眼光

b.l.a.n.k

2009-09-05T08:49:00.000-07:00

Blank.
My brain is blank,
I knew what is going on.
And I still can't accept the truth.

Life is going on always
and I need to move on.
I cannot keep stubborn anymore.
If one thing not belongs to you,
no matter how much effort you had put,
You will still never get it.
Finally, I had learnt this today.
It's will be a precious lessons for me.

I think...
I will be better in Time.
I can live without She.
I will smile to face if because I deserved it.
I will let everything go so I'll be free.

樂

2009-09-03T20:34:00.000-07:00

::你快乐所以我快乐-王菲::

只要妳快乐
我就会释怀
只要妳快乐
我会更轻易的放开
只要妳快乐
幸福就会跟着妳
只要你快乐
我的快乐也就回来了
所以妳要快乐
我愿意真的愿意把去我的全部
换取妳的快乐
因为我现在唯一能做的是

看到你快乐

一样

2009-09-01T09:59:00.000-07:00

一样的结束了
我还是一样的
在自己的轨道上
慢慢的流浪着

一样的开始了
新的学期开始了
好快好快
我又开始忙了

一样的正常了
希望我们能够
多一些的沟通
和笑着的打招呼

一样的我听着
熟悉的钢琴曲
从不觉得烦腻
因为我又想你了

一样的一样
陆续的发生了
我想改变
但我不能

3.30a.m

2009-08-16T12:15:00.000-07:00

What a DAY~

2009-08-15T05:57:00.001-07:00

I done something today that I still feel very guilty now
although it is ended.

Today is a sunny day.
Well, woke up at 12pm++
I suppose to stay at hostel and
finished my revison on BioChem+FQM
since this last 2 subject's final exam
will be held on next thursday.
I do remember I published a post on Facebook
approximately 10 hours ago to remind myself
(Hope nobody will remember about it! ~.~)
that I can't keep slacking today and
must finish studying all the notes.

But at last...I'm gave myself a lame excuses again:-
"Due to the feeling of extremely boredom of using the touch pad on my laptop,
I decided to go to MidValley Megamall to search for a
affordable and branded mouse for my laptop."
I made this decision in a very hurry mood
after having my lunch around 3p.m.

Arrived at KTM station around 3.30pm with roommate,
OMG, the KTM is damn so crowded and
I really hate being travel with KTM! Groan!
And suddenly I had a thought of A H1N1 flu and
started to feel worry with it. Ok de la hor? Haha...

End up, I never go to buy even a piece of paper instead of
eating non stop at MidValley there.
Nevermind, I'll wait for coming of December.
"Logitech V450 Laser Wireless Mouse, Red colour de"
This sentence is for someone who is still working in S'pore.
Thanks 1st! Ngek ngek... The price was sold too expensive at M'sia.

Some photos for the food that I had ate today:

::It's Sushi King's Unagi season again! Yummy...::

::Don't know what name it is. New from sushi King. They use cheese to replace the seaweed::

:: Jusco's Penang Asam Laksa (at level 2). Quite nice but lack of fresh fish meat inside::

::Carribean Cocktail from Juice works. It's NOT a liquor! It is a ice blended juice with mango, banana, pineapples, sorbet, and tropicanal juice. Strongly Recommended! Fresh+good sensentation in mouth. Guarentee you will be damn full after drink this! RM7.95 >.<::

Conclusions:
What a relax and stomach satisfied day. But notes are still for waiting me...Must +double oil le. Cannot turn on the laptop starts tomorrow!
"Wonder can I do it or not..."

p/s:
Happy Birthday to My dearest sister Miss Jenny Chong which is currently working in S'pore~
You accumulate your B'day presents 1st la. I'll pay it all in one shoot after I graduated and got a new job. =P
Lots of Love, Muacks.

Eric.Fan

C.O.N.C.E.N.T.R.A.T.E

2009-08-12T23:54:00.000-07:00

Sigh, wasted another day.

Concentrate [ ] !
Where are you?
I need you now! Don't go away!
What am I haven't done? And made me can't concentrate?

7 days to go for final 2 subjects's combo.
I must concentrate and study.

Dear Mr [Concentration]:
Please come back to me lar...
I will let you to relax after 20/8 5.30p.m
I will feed you with a lots of delicious foods and sleeping time too~

Suddenly, there is a
scene in my mind~~~

"Devil" Eric Chong: Relax lar. Nevermind la. Study so many times and days already. Don't push yourself too tight. Go to sleep and have some relax la.

"Angel" Eric Chong: No! You must study hard, and you must graduate with good result too! Don't you want to go to study at oversea always? This is the time to realize your dream! Just study. Go ahead! Go! Make you parents to feel proud again!

"Normal human being's" Eric Chong: I...I...I'm innocent! Gosh...

F.I.N.A.L E.X.A.M
Should I LOVE or HATE you?
Argh!!!

我还是会

2009-08-08T09:14:00.000-07:00

原来我还是会
想念
以前我们

那
在一起
读书的时刻.
在一起
尴尬沉默的时刻.
在一起
旅行的时刻.
在一起
庆祝的时刻.
在一起
努力上课的时刻.
在一起
忙着赶功课的时刻.

但
我已经不能
和你再次的
一起体验
那背书的时刻，
那安静无言的时刻，
那开心的时刻，
那互相祝福的时刻，
那一起打瞌睡的时刻，
还有那一起偷懒的时刻.
等等...

现在
只剩下我独自一个.
我有点累及
是多么的渴望能够
自己能够归队
就算静静的也好
只要在
妳
身旁
一切就足够了.

F.I.N.A.L

2009-08-07T12:37:00.001-07:00

Finally began my 1st final exam in university life...
Thankfully, I managed to finish
all my assignments and reports on time
so that I can focus on my revision
to prepare for the examinations.
Thanks to all my groupmates that involved.
Good Jobs! =)

Well, final exam also indicated
another ending of a busy semester.
It happen so fast and yet slow.
Gosh, what had I done?

I realised that I had experienced many new
things other than reports, assignments, quizes and finals.
I keep reminding myself, this is a process,
and I need to enjoy it, work hard on it.

For me, final exam is the beginnig of abnormal life style.
Sleep after 4am, eat non stop, junk foods,
instant noddle, tea tarik, coffee...etc.
I need delicious and quality foods
so that I'll not feel so stressful.
But foods at here,
ouch~ lack of quality and yet choices.
Not chicken rice then "wat dan ho"...
Penang foods, I'm coming back, wait for me.

Finished 2 LAN subjects on thursday and friday.
The examination system in university shocked me.
Rules, examiners, the venue...etc
I must adapt well to it!

3 more subjects to go~ Must strive for the best!
Java on 10/8 and Combo for
BioChem and FQM on 20/8.
Eric hates having COMBO papers in 1 day! (for final only. if for movie, Eric will never hate it!)
I must pass all 5 subjects !!!
If not, PTPTN will colder than water.

Short semester will start on 1st of September.
Approximately 12 days after I finish my final exams.
Sigh. The shortest sem break that I ever heard.
2 subjects had been selected.
Heard from senior, short sem will busy like hell. :X
Somemore the lecturer for PON is very fierce.
Scare scare...>.<

All the best to all ucsi university final exam's candidates.
Good Luck~Cheers!

舍爱

2009-07-26T09:11:00.000-07:00

好多好多次
我告诉自己
要想妳最后一次
可是我不能
我做不到.

谢谢妳.
给了我一个
很好的回应.
不残忍,
也不带伤害.
让我解脱了
也让我退出了.
我终于接受
那早就预测到的
答案.

我们会是很好的朋友
不管现在或未来
一直到以后
你说对吗?

我会怀念那
翻阅想念你的
七百多个夜晚。
因为不懂,
曾经何时
我的思念消失了
而寂寞又要与我相伴了.

不必在乎一切
也不必解释一切
因为我懂
这一切不是你想要的.
你也没有这个必要.
因为一直以来
都是我一个人在
独自的执着着.

有人曾经和我说过
眼泪掉下来
是因为受伤了.
眼泪这次掉不下来，
或许真的放开了吧.

谢谢妳~
让我爱过

我会学着不会心痛,
也会学着不会在意.
因为我要看到妳
每天都在开心的笑着.

妳要幸福.^^

25/72009

2009-07-25T05:51:00.000-07:00

Today is my dearest Mummy's birthday.
Mum, forgive me for cannot go back Penang
and celebrate your birthday with you
or even be your side.

Mummy,
Thanks for giving me life.
Thanks for loving me.
Thanks for always be my side.
Thanks for teaching me.
Thanks for providing me my needs.
Thanks for support me always.
Thanks for annouying me.
Thanks for worrying me.
Thanks for scolding me.
Thanks for everything...that you had gave me.
And I am SORRY for doing all the things that hurt you so much.

"You will always be the light tower in the dark ocean
that lead me back to your side whenever I had lost."
"You will always be the path in the strong wind,
that hold me always when I'm fallen."

I Love You. Now and always until forever.

May God Bless You always
with good health and joyful.

I will be studying hard,
as I promised to you before.

Eric+Mum+Sibilings

Lots of Love
Eric.帆

p/s: Happy Birthday to my 4th anuty too that having the same birthday with my mum. =)

Be Motivated?

2009-07-11T05:44:00.000-07:00

It's July...~

It supposed to be a happening month

because year of 2009 is getting into the 3rd quarter season.
Gosh, what am I doing now?

The laziness are pulling me apart from the books and notes.

I just can't stop myself from sitting in front of my laptop for
Facebook and watching movie on pps.
How? Can somebody tell how to make myself be motivated?

Well, finally got my final exam timetable, exam will start on August.
Wait~ There is a bad news! = =

Did I saw wrong?

2 subjects will be held on the same day. Sigh! =(

Spoiled my mood. Groan!!!
Suggested solutions: Complaint to faculty? 2 choose 1? Both?
Can I do that? & What can I do?
Unfortunately, there is no solution, and I just have to accept it and go for it. >.<

Want to watch many movies(Ice Age 3, Transformer II, Harry Poter...), but ...

Want to go for a relaxing trip(Redang? Genting?), but ...

Want to go back hometown, but ...

Tests, Assignments, Practical Reports, Quizes, and Homeworks...etc

They had answered why I can't.

Am I happy?

Yes & No

Yes, because study is the life I always want when I was working. [Free+Fun+Fanstastic!]

No, because there are still a lot of unsolved homeworks! [Sienz+Shit+Sigh!]

Can I complaint?

Mum: No, definitely not! This is the life what you want! Nobody force you . You should . . . And you should not . . .I had invested so much on you . . .bla bla bla

Eric: . . . Speechless =.<

Look! What I had wrote for myself. I hope it will useful always. +.+

Conclusion:

Just study lo. If not what else can I do?

Strive for the best!

"To Live in Endeavour always"

乘客

2009-07-07T02:32:00.000-07:00

乘客-王菲

高架桥过去了
路口还有好多个
这旅途不曲折
一转眼就到了
坐你开的车
听你听的歌
我们好快乐
第一盏路灯开了
你在想什么
歌声好快乐
那歌手结婚了
坐你开的车
听你听的歌
我不是不快乐
白云苍白色
蓝天灰蓝色
我家快到了
我是这部车第一个乘客
我不是不快乐
天空血红色
星星灰银色
你的爱人呢
Yes I'm going home
I must hurry home
Where your life goes on
So I'm going home
Going home alone
And your life goes on

看了求婚事务所后,
就很喜欢这首歌.
因为不懂歌名
只隐隐约约的记得
这首歌的旋律
所以找了很久,很久.

歌词By 林夕
用了很潇洒的
手法写了这个词
虽然简单
但足以描述
人生.

的确,人的一生就像
公车里的乘客
起点,终点和那
无法预知
沿途的经历.

命运一直在掌控着乘客
无论是谁先上车,
或者是谁先下车.

乘客在乎的,
是里面的座位
还是当中的过程呢？

乘客又是否曾望一望
外面那短暂
又绚丽的风景啊?

抵达终点的那一刻.
乘客就只能默默的
接受那无常一生
的结束.

想家篇

2009-07-05T08:19:00.000-07:00

终于体会到失眠的滋味了，

不懂是无法适应

功课突然暴增,

太过于担心

无法及时完成

还是压力所造成的.

p/s: Joyce&ChewYi, if you guys see this, I wanna tell both of you, 我还没老!只是大你们一两岁而已!~Hah

妈妈,谢谢妳.

让我养成

今日事,今日毕的习惯

虽然,有些时候

我都没有准时做完

该做的事.

但我想说,我都在很尽力的

做完每样该完成的事情.

突然好想回家,

康乐的食物快吃腻了.

好想吃妈妈煮的饭,

什么都好.

就连一盘只放酱青的

蛋炒饭.

爸妈旅行回来了,

去了两个地方

虽然不会很远

但替他们感到开心.

因为为了婆婆的事情

他们也奔波了很久.

同时也有点生气，

因为去玩也不通知一声

应该是怕我跟去吧.Hah~

真糟糕!

还好有手信. =)

希望今晚不用再数绵羊了~

Eric's 全家福 Nov'08

无题心情录

2009-06-27T23:23:00.000-07:00

当了两个月的学生了,
问看自己有什么感想,
我不知道,只懂读书好过做工，
就尽情享受. 因为总算回到
预期中的轨道上了。

终于做了很多以前做工时
无法做的事情.
睡到七迟八迟,
无聊的对着电脑,
逛看连续剧,
到处无聊的走走等...

忙的时候还是很忙。
空虚的心情都被
高似山的课业
给满满的填补了。
我享受因为我懂
这会让我好过一点。

看回以往，
感情方面足足空白了2年,
不懂是自己给藉口
让自己忙不要去想那么多,
还是不肯去争取，
还是怕再次的受挫折。

得知妳和他分手了，
妳还好吗?
我还很想妳。
可是我无法让你知道。
因为我怕，你知道了后
我就连见你的机会都会没有了
在人前人后，我和他们说
我忘记妳了，
是假的.
或许我真的怕了吧.

原来,想念一个人
是会用错管道的
当你把想念的心
转移到另一个人的身上时
你已经不知不觉地在犯错了...
因为你在给藉口
让自己不寂寞。

Let Me Love

2009-06-03T09:03:00.000-07:00

Like this song very much this recently. Thanks to JS, for recommended this song to me.

I believe everyone in this world have the right to love, or being loved.

"Let Me Love" is a song sang by 阿桑, a great singer which is just passed away after lost her battle to cancer. The lyric for this song is simple, but it touched my heart every time I listen to it. 阿桑, thank you for singing well in this song. I'll never forget you. May you rest in peace.

阿桑-让我爱

让我脆弱的爱让我痛苦的爱
让我迷失的爱但我还是渴望爱
让我温暖的爱让我美丽的爱
让我微笑的爱但我还是害怕爱

爱爱爱哎哎哎
爱爱爱让我爱
爱爱爱哎哎哎
我要爱让我爱

让我渺小的爱让我停摆的爱
让我摇头的爱但我还是挡不住爱
让我懂了的爱让我勇敢的爱
让我活着的爱但我还是留不住爱

爱爱爱哎哎哎爱爱爱让我爱
爱爱爱哎哎哎我要爱让我爱

爱爱爱哎哎哎爱爱爱让我爱
爱爱爱哎哎哎我要爱让我爱

爱爱爱让我渺小的爱　
哎哎哎让我停摆的爱
爱爱爱让我摇头的爱　
让我爱但我还是挡不住爱
爱爱爱让我懂了的爱　
哎哎哎让我勇敢的爱
爱爱爱让我活着的爱　
让我爱但我还是留不住爱

爱爱爱哎哎哎
爱爱爱让我爱

The Moment

2009-05-30T11:27:00.000-07:00

The night is so silent at this moment, it makes me feel a very deep loneliness…

It has been almost a year since I last posted a new blog on the internet. I keep telling myself to write an updated blog when I have free time, but laziness had kept me delaying. I remember last year this time I was in dilemma deciding my new direction after I finished my diploma…

Everything just happens so fast, and all the views are still playing in my mind until now clearly. Yup, that is it, my working experience in Singapore. To lighten up my dad’s heavy burden, 19 years old playful boy had gone to a total stranger country, Singapore, to work. Talking about my first job, I had worked in a moderate private limited industries company. My job title was as a lab technician. (Something liked QA). I felt so excited to be employed into this company since what I studied was related to it. I got trained in this company, to plate or to passivate an aluminum, stainless steel, steel, etc…There were many things that I needed to handle when I was working there, such as attending training, briefing, meetings, preparing reports, doing testing on new materials, and so on. Although I felt very stressful sometimes, but it was a great experience for me to learn many new and interest things since I had no experience in this field at all. I had learned many skills such as how to communicate well with the colleagues from other departments, to troubleshoot on quality issue products, to do research, and so on.

Besides working, I had known a lot of new friends and colleagues. Kuang, Siew, Ling, Rose, Grace, Gemma, Yong, and Ping, thanks for guiding me in so many things when I was in trouble. Working with you all was pleasant and enjoyable. And please do forgive my childishness when I was playing fool with you guys during work. I would never forget the moment when we went to sing k, eat lunch at Gao Yuan, play bowling, eat crabs at Siew’s house, eat buffet at Sakura, shop at Bugis and etc…Even though I was far away from home, but all of you had given me the feeling of being at home always. And the most important matter was, you guys celebrated my 20 years old birthday at Genting. : ) Thanks to you all so so so so much! Love ya all…

I would like to thank those people who had been so selfish and hurt me so much in this company too, because of you all, I had grown up to be a more confidence and matured person, and a brand new Eric was born. The old Eric is dead and gone now… After that, I had changed another new job as a handphone sales executive. It was the second place in Singapore where I strengthened up my communication skills again. I had learned how to persuade customers by calling them to buy handphone, to apply for a telco line, to apply for a broadband and so on. Well, being in a customer service sector in Singapore was not as easy as I thought. It was always challenging and attention was needed all the time, and I always need to focus to know what the customer’s needs were. Working in this company had helped me to put away my self-esteem to listen to other people and senior’s advises to get improvement. The job routine was same everyday in this company compared to last company. But, what I felt was still the same. The feeling of stress, fear of making mistakes, strives for the sales targets and etc. Although I found myself talkative, but this job had proven that I was wrong and I needed to get improvement to correct my mistake.

Thanks Calvin, for being a good and caring superior. Thanks Evonne, for teaching me so many techniques to improve my sales skills and to be an “admin clerk” in shop. So sorry for disappointing you for the reason that I left Raffles. Thanks to Eric Chiang, for being a good manager, at the same time taught me so many things too. Thanks to Ling, for being a good colleague, a good listener and a cute character in our company. And at last, thanks to Kelvin Lee, for being a good boss. Although I only worked for 4 months, but I believe what I gained was more than that and was worth it. I would miss the days we danced crazily in double o! ~ ^^

As conclusion, I found that study is still the best. I promise you all that I will do my best to graduate and get my bachelor’s degree and become a successful dietician one day. Thanks to everyone that I had known in Singapore, and thanks to all of the encouragement that you all had given me.

p/s: Special thanks to Charlie, Vivian, Jenifer; best sister, and my lovely elder sister; Jenny. For the moment we had suffered together, and for the moment we will success. All the best to all of you.

Best regards,

E r i C F a N May'09

Cheers~

Eric celebrating his 20 years old birthday at Genting Highlands together with colleagues.

Eric and sister Fer during a gathering.

Eric and lovely Jenny in McD cafe before went for shopping.

Eric and Charlie while traveling in mrt during an outing.

Working Eric during the second job, Sales Executive.

Eric with colleagues during the first job. Eating at a buffet restaurant.

Eric with colleagues during the farewell.

Eric while as a Lab Technician.

Aloha! Blogspot.

2009-05-29T05:58:00.000-07:00

Finally lauched my first official blog at blogspot... Bye bye to friendster blog and bye bye to xanga blog to0.

Hello to every blogger in blogspot, I'm Eric-Fan. A student who is nearly 21 years old. Nothing special about me, but I always try to be simple and passionate ... Perhaps you can describe me as funny, humorous and talkative if you know me. = )

It is kinda hard for me to write a well built blog on my first time without a draft. Well, I hope I can update my blog often to let everyone know about my feelings towards life, society, and things that happen beside you and me.

That's all for my first blog today, hello again to everyone.

E r i C F a N

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